[justmeandmyhead]

since my last episode i feel like ive lost part of 'me'. i cant concentrate on anything and i dont want to be a part of the world. also dont know what is normal and what isnt. is so weird ive gone through life thinking these things were normal an now im being told they aren't. i dont know what is me and what is the 'illness'. still feel watched everytime i go outside and still get them putting thoughts in my head even tho im on meds. dont know how much to tell them though i dont want to end up back in hospital. just dont know what the hell is going on in my head. is this normal?

[faerie_moon_x]

I think that it is normal. I feel lost quite often. Meds are not magic wands. I also feel like I have lost big parts of myself and other parts slipping away.

But I also feel I know things that others are blind to. Because of the experience I've had.

[justmeandmyhead]

no i know your right they cant make everything go and i guess i wouldnt want it to. im just scared about ending up back in hospital. is life meant to feel real?

[Sometimes psychotic]

Who is telling you that it isn't real? My pdoc and T never did that they just asked questions and let me figure it out. Its kind of a slower gentler process but it can take months to get rid of the delusions that way even on the meds. I doubt they would send you back to hospital if you're honest but they might increase your med dose. You can expect your concentration to be fried for a while, brain games like luminosity and brain age on the ds or even crosswords helped me. Also you can try learning a new language or a musical instrument. I considered my brain to be damaged and used cognitive remediation (brain games) to get it back.

[justmeandmyhead]

My partner tries to tell me that things are just in my head or that things are part of my supposed 'illness'. I know he means well but i dont really believe that they are. Thanks for the advice will try the games they sound like a good idea if i can concentrate on them.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead

My partner tries to tell me that things are just in my head or that things are part of my supposed 'illness'. I know he means well but i dont really believe that they are. Thanks for the advice will try the games they sound like a good idea if i can concentrate on them.

Its important to have someone honest to ask if you want to know if something is real or not but I'm not sure your partner should just be telling you if you don't ask it may be rushing things a bit.