[Sarah116]

Do any of you hear things, see things, have strange hard to explain experiences or get the feel that people can hear or hurt your thoughts? At night people are after you? I do, out of all the groups here Schizophrenia/Psychosis is not so popular. I suppose it is due to if you were affected you would not think of coming to PC to get help. I am pretty lucky. Hope to meet some of you that share the same experiences Sarah

[mspearl]

Sarah, I go through the same things.....I have yet to go to a doctor about It.Just not prepared to deal with the ignorance and intolerance that goes along with admitting that you are mentally ill.I have no support from family and friends on this ...

[goldmaiden]

I have this strange experience that i get scared when i hear people coming up the stairs to my room and my brother's.

Maybe it's because my Dad once stormed up there and pushed his way into my room and i was naked and asked him not to come in.

Or maybe not.

But i've noticed it now, even when it's not my Dad, it's just my brother.

I know that's not really what you were talking about, it just reminded me.

[mlyn]

soooo understand. Hope you quit looking it as sickness.
Just because ppl do not know or understand does not mean it isn't real.
geesh had spirits walking in house for long time even kids seen and heard them too. does not make for sickness. there are things dr's t's and pds can not explain other than the lables they know. Does not make them right.
Is just fact.

[Leilee]

Yes, yes I hear thins all the time. People tell me to grow up becuz of my stupid thoughts and actions. I am so loney becuz it's like I'm being watched and it's like actual telepathy. Don't you feel it- we can actually start to read each other's minds, but I hate it becuz my thought are not my own!!!! <font color="red"> </font> I hate it when I can think something in my head and than people will actually talk to me about it, Boy it's just not fair. <font color="black"> </font> My mind is not my own. Crud!

Well at least I get to visit with a new g/f tonight.

Hang in there, Leilee :agreemen leeoana@yahoo.com <font color="#000088"> </font> t:

[goldmaiden]

I feel like i have telepathy...it's got really worse

But sometimes i just think i am talented u know? Maybe it's normal.

Oh well i feel bad tonight

[Sarah116]

I am more than glad to meet you all thanks for posting a reply! Yes I know and I agree with you Goldenmaiden. I hope that the Psychosis schizophrenia form will be able to help people and get better like some of the others. I do think it is a gift but some people like doctors just do not understand that. Goldenmaiden I know how that feels and it is not very good at all ... God bless you!

[Sarah116]

Yeah, I am not the one looking at it as a sickness. My Doctors are but sometimes doctors can really be skeptical sophisticated snotty jerks. Hope you get the best Sarah

[Sarah116]

Yeah same here, people tell me that a lot. But I think of it as as bad as it is I have a beautiful gift! I hope you find a nice person or g/f that treats you good and understands you so life can be peaceful for you.

[Sarah116]

Mspearl, Extremely thrilled to meet you and happy you took time to post a reply! I hope you find someone besides us on PC someone you actually can see and be near unlike through the computer even know it can be nice. Yes it truly is hard I did not know what was going on and was upset when i was told I was out of realty. I do not see it as a sickness but as a gift. God bless you all people sorry it took me awhile to reply I am very busy but not too busy to think of you!

[Rhapsody]

Yes, I hear things, but with My Dx of DID - I just figure it is one of them..... better than me going insane from the voices and sounds that are not physically in front of me.


LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[Evangelista]

I have both auditory internal & external and visual hallucinations, and have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD, and DID..my younger sister is a Paranoid Schizophrenic, and another younger one suffers from delusions and has auditory and visual hallucinations.

I think I am more taken back by the visual hallucinations than the voices...because at least with the voices I can check the enviroment..and see no one is there and it kinda grounds me..but with the visual hallucinations..totally unerves and panics me.because there is no safe reference points..and because most of the time they are pretty violent..yucky stuff...

Eva...

[Sarah116]

I semi agree with you, some of mine are mortifying and when I see them I get horrified! Yikes that's all I have to say! Sarah

[Malady156]

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I don't "hear" things so much as "receive" things ... the language in which my Guardians communicate with me is not human. It is Other, like me. I don't think people can hear my thoughts, I KNOW they can receive my thoughts when I beam them toward them -- and this has been confirmed by many, many others so it's not just in my head. Also as a telepath I frequently receive the thoughts of others rapidly and readily and this, too, is confirmed by them on numerous occasions. I am one with Satan to the point where I lose all distinction between He and myself -- and again ... others around me are distinctly aware when they are dealing directly with Him through me or in me. I do believe there are subtle energies afoot in the world and that others are capable of directing and focusing their thoughts and energies negatively against Me to oppress Me if they so choose.

But I don't believe any of this makes me mentally ill, because it is all real. However, i often feel psychotic trying to live in this world where what is considered "normal" is to deny anything more unusual than a f*cking bologna sandwich and to go about with a constant veneer of bullsh*t on. I'm too raw and feral for human society. I have often thought of just leaving society altogether and living in the woods or in a cave or something. Right now I'm fortunate to have a lovely spread and an outbuilding to do ritual in. The setting is very beautiful and I'm wanting to freeze this moment in time because real estate is way off the charts in my area and we are only renting the place, could never afford to buy it (well never say never but it's out of budget right now).

I do have to maintain a balance somewhat and keep a human veneer and illusion going so that I will not be discovered as I truly am and locked away (breach of the Prime Directive in my world) and also so that I can make money and earn a living. But I constantly have stress and anxiety about my two worlds -- the Real (which is not so to others) and the Fake (which others take for the real) -- colliding and melting together in the wrong places at the wrong times. So any day when I am short or snappy or otherwise not the perfect human shell at work I become anxious over it, thinking surely they will discover My secrets and fire me now.

[Sarah116]

WOW! I agree with you and that is wrong to fire you just because of that. You might not want put any profane on here just to say. I hope you do get more than you ever could have dreamed of someday the same for everyone who is good. So sad some people out there make jokes about people with mental illness in shrink talk. Well it is sort of helpful to Psych doctors and them because it is like a code they can use to find therapies and ways to fix problems. But everyone is different. talk to you later