Roll Call 16

happy birthday Erti

Thanks Newtus!

Happy Birthday! Are you doing anything fun?

Thanks Sometimes! As far as I know, I'm not sure. The snow is pretty heavy right now. My stepdad was talking about going to Texas Roadhouse because he had a gift card.

Well happy birthday Erti !
Hope it is wonderful hun!

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Thanks Punky

happy birthday erti

i feel sad i guess. ive been isolating and staying in my apartment by myeslf. im not hearing voices though even though i stopped the 2 prns in the day that were holding me together. they havent come back so thats good. i think T is mad that im gambling with meds again but i think it will be ok. I saw him today and he asked if i was coming to hearing voices group today. i said maybe. i might go hang out with a friend. im nervous about going to group and talking in front of T becuase i would talk about my meds and we havent really discussed it yet. we meet tomorrow.

im seriously considering changing doctors. i meet with my therapist tomorrow and meet with the pdoc on tuesday. if he doesnt reduce my dose then im seriously thinking of changing.

Thanks Junk

Maybe going to group will help you feel better?

Hopefully things work out for you.

Happy birthday, Erti!

It's not snowing here but it's like -9 this morning, so the snow is on the ground and not going anywhere.

Can you discuss this with your T? Tell them it's extremely a serious issue for you and very important.

Thanks Faerie

i have and shes like "i cant do anything about that you have to talk to your doctor" and the nurse said the same thing. thats why i had a fight with the nurse that time when i made that thread "im screwed". because of the dose of the med. they keep telling me "we cant do anything about it" and if they really cant then this isnt the place for me. they wont even listen to me to begin with. im just a case number to them.

When things go bad-Don't go with them.

I'm sorry that so many are struggling lately

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERTI!!!

I'm sorry that you're feeling suicidal Newtus! Don't give up hope though. I was feeling suicidal just a couple of weeks ago and now I feel fine.

The OT appt went fine. She was nicer than the other one. We agreed that I'd get up earlier and would shower/bath once a week, and she would find out about craft classes and mindfulness courses. Then we'll meet again next week to discuss our progress. I was supposed to get up 15mins earlier each morning, but I cba pfaffing around and so decided just to get up at 9am every morning and deal with the tiredness until my body clock adjusted. I also arranged for my Dad to call me just after to make sure I don't cheat and go back to sleep Mum wanted the OT to take me swimming, but she agreed that was too scary right now and we'd work up to that starting with showering once a week and putting moisturiser on afterwards to get more comfortable with my icky body. I'm also taking the tablets the GP gave me to sleep. I don't want to get ahead of myself but I feel ok right now, which for me is pretty amazing given how bad I was feeling just a couple of weeks ago. Keeping busy is good for distracting me from paranoia/anxiety and I'm finally unpacking!

My Mum was moved to the other hospital for more specialist care. She had a huge list of tests done today, but I'm not sure what tests or what for. It's frustrating to have info third hand that makes no medical sense. I keep asking my parents to make an appt with the Consultant so we can all find out what's going on (and I can translate it for my parents! Lol), but they keep putting it off thinking that the Drs know best - NO THEY FRICKING DON'T!!!

*Willow*

im sweating like a ho

i just made an appt with another psychiatrist.

they told me to bring my bottles. and im liek "um what?" and they said "your prescription bottles" and im like *oh **** im on a shot what do i do?* and then i remembered i can bring one of my old haldol pill bottles!!! with my current psychs name on it and they take medicare!!!

so PLEASE OH GOD let this work out.

but i had to tell them my diagnosis over the phone so im like UGH. i woulda said bipolar but my diagnosis is schizoaffective under my disability so i just said schizoaffective.

im kinda excited because this could mean real change for me but if she suggests shots again im fu_kin screwed. but im about to lie and bring an old prescription bottle so yea :/ gotta make sure and empty it so she knows i took them.

(((willow)))

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oh btw its a psychiatrist ive seen before. but the reason i left her is because i got insurance. but now im going back

im scared idk if i did the right thing or not

Thanks Punky

Sounds like a good (albeit sneaky) plan Newtus. I'll keep my fingers crossed it works out for you.

*Willow*

Happy b-day, Erti!

It's okay to make an appt with another pdoc. It's okay to try to take charge of your own treatment by picking your own doctor.

Don't forget not to agree to your new pdoc getting your old notes though! Lol

*Willow*