[Victoria'smom]

So I'm trying really hard to remind myself my husband isn't trying to get me to divorce him.

My trip with my parents isn't a ploy to move my stuff to their house while I'm away to avoid a 'scene' when getting served papers.

And he is not going to run away while I am gone.
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The funny thing is I'm going on the trip because a couple of months ago I thought he was trying to kill me.

So psychosis or no given I understand its wrong?

[TheatreKid]

I think everything has that line between functional and non-functional, and paranoia isn't always psychosis... I read an article once that compared paranoia to phobias - there's a range and it's a problem if it severely impacts your functioning. I don't know how a layperson is supposed to make that decision for you though - have you talked to your pdoc?

I am paranoid that one day I will not be able to stop myself from blurting out something very inappropriate in the middle of a quiet scene like a university lecture or backstage while I'm doing theatre. I imagine myself doing all sorts of inappropriate things and I'm terrified that I'll actually do them, but I've been told that that paranoia is more akin to anxiety, phobias, or OCD than psychosis.

[Victoria'smom]

I tried to tell my t Monday but she just didn't get it. I wasn't clear enough with explaining it. My pdoc doesn't know but I don't really have a pdoc right now.

[Sometimes psychotic]

So you can have psychosis with insight but that applies to the hallucination part----if you know its not real it can't be a delusion so if these thoughts are it I'd say you're approaching psychosis but not there in a technical sense. That doesn't mean it wouldn't help you to address it either medically or therapeutically

[Victoria'smom]

I know its getting harder to convince myself that its not true. Its just to perfect of a plan.

[TheatreKid]

So get help. Med adjustment, talk to your tdoc, sometimes you need to just ask for help from someone qualified to do it.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm titrating up to 20 mg of viibryd which is an AD with AP qualities. I start 20 mg tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm giving the secretary a note of everything going on to give to T (she is only there M, W, F) but I really don't know what they can do in 13 day without a pdoc. I got turned away from the crisis unit with out being seen last week and I was in a worse spot then. It seems as my seroquel wares off it seems to be worse. Its suppose to be a PRN but I've been taking it daily for almost two months tonight was suppose to be the last night I was going to take it. I'm also paranoid I'm gaining lots of weight a wk ago was weighed and I gained 4 lbs.

[kenshin99]

I struggle with this question a lot. I believe there are certain things going on around me like the NSA is trying to recruit me for a mission, but people tell me its not true and i want to believe that it is in fact not true, but deep down in my heart they are coming for me. It doesn't help that two NSA agents follow me around everywhere and that they have eyes watching me 24/7. I know this sounds crazy but i believe it to be true. So I have lost the ability to tell my delusions from from just crazy thinking and paranoia. One day all of this will be clear for all of us.

[Jolisse]

Psychotic or not, everyone is responsible for their actions.

[Victoria'smom]

i want to believe that it is in fact not true, but deep down in my heart they are coming for me. That's kind where I am. I know its not true but I feel it is,