[reginox]

I used to hear music as a kid and sometimes felt a menacing presence (mumbling ) in the shadows of my bedroom...made going to bed and sleeping hard. I was abused as a kid. My real father used to lock me in the closet when I cried as a baby and my step father used to pyschologically, emotionally, physically (later attempted sexual). I am not really looking for sympathy just someone else who remembers hearing voices as a kid. I think I withdrew (dissociative) so bad that I started hearing my own subconscious.

I still went to school but I knew I was much different than the other kids and had a hard time developing friendships. My household looked quite normal from the outside. Later in high school and college, I was quite fond of LSD because when I was high I felt like somebody else.

I had my first episode at 19 and during this time I was given thorazine and locked in an isolation room for 3 days (I have PSTD from it). My mother was told I was a basket case and to give up but when my doctor finally changed my med (the thorazine made me violent), I crawled back to some kind of normalcy and finished college and worked and all that functioning as a member of society stuff.

I have other episodes and the doctors love to come up with unusual labels, I just roll my eyes, take the meds and get back to work and eventually they forget about me and let me live some kind of life.

However, at 48 I have kinda of given up. It was bad this last time even though I really really tried to play by the rules...I just wanted the chance to heal but everyone just wanted me in the hospital...over and over...until I finally lost my rather good health insurance and then it was like...hey...your cured. Really.

I also had a car accident and got a concussion but everyone seemed more interested in my diagnosis as a mental health patient rather than the fact that I was having weird headaches.

Ok I sorta *****ed a little...but seriously who remembers hearing stuff as a kid?

Thank you and even though life is bizarre now, at least I am still allowed to see my daughter so I am ok and I sorta have a safe place to live...I am also getting a divorce from my emotionally abusive husband.

And I do have a hobby...a blog, it is about controlling your emotions, I had to learn to really really control my feelings and emotions so that I could be a "functioning member of society." So it has tips about not allowing your emotions to rule you.

Please respond...thank you.

I can't say that I heard music as a kid. I actually have almost no memory of my life prior to around age 8. I do recall, after that, I had various ritualistic behaviors that I engaged in prior to going to bed. I had a variety of ticks that would come & go. I also had a recurring dream that involved being attacked from behind by an unknown "force" (not a person.) I also experienced sleep paralysis. It frightened me to death because I didn't understand what was happening. I would wake up & my body would be completely frozen.

I also "bumped" my head to go to sleep. At one time I had a picture of myself that was taken when I was around 2 years old. Just above my hairline, there was a circle of scalp where the hair had been worn away as a result of this. I continued to do it until I finally broke myself of it in my mid to late teens. And this is just the stuff I don't mind talking about! When I was young, however, no one paid any attention to these sorts of things. So I just grew up with them & did my best to hide them from family & friends, etc.

[junkDNA]

i had weird behaviors like shwering with my clothes on cuz i thought there were cameras in the shower (but my T said thats a sign of sexual abuse) . but i started hearing voices around 14 to 15 yrs old and was hospitalized the firsttime at 16

[Bigmike727]

I don't know if at 16 I would still be considered a "kid" but that was when I started hearing demons talk to me and seeing spirits in the forms of shadows. Since starting the Zyprexa they don't seem to bother me as much anymore, but I sometimes still do hear the voices talk to me.

[blackwhitered]

No I did not hear voices as a kid. I started hearing them at age 15. However I did have some visual hallucinations of ghosts and angels as a kid.

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[medicalfox]

Yeah I started having hallucinations when I was 15 too. Childhood schizophrenia is very rare and I have not met anyone that was diagnosed as a child, usually people first develop symptoms in their teens to young adulthood.

[newtus]

i start hearing voices and seeing demons at 12. but i was paranoid since 9.

[Victoria'smom]

I started having Eating disorder auditory hallucination's by 8. I have no idea when I started seeing shadows that aren't there.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I heard voices when I was a child.

[reginox]

Thank you everyone for your replies. In my talks with other people and reading, I have noticed a correlation with voice hearing and traumatic events as a child. I spent the last few years 2010 to present where I was subject to voice hearing (or really loud independent thoughts) as well as tactile hallucations. I am currently 48. I spent a lot of time asking the voices what they wanted and to come back when I was not working. I feel strongly that sometimes is was information buried in my subconscious coming to the surface but there was a few times that I don't know what was going on. I am not afraid of the voices or stuff...just try to sort out what is real and what is not as I interact with people.

[likewater]

Originally Posted by junkDNA

i had weird behaviors like shwering with my clothes on cuz i thought there were cameras in the shower (but my T said thats a sign of sexual abuse) . but i started hearing voices around 14 to 15 yrs old and was hospitalized the firsttime at 16

I'm so very sorry you were abused. You were hurt in a way that no one should ever be hurt, especially a child. May angels and healing surround you.

[transient]

I'm not going to get into it, but there was no way I could tell anyone what was going on with me, and they just brushed it off as nightmares and "normal" little kids fears. From the start I already believed that nothing I said was worthy, and my parents worked a lot, my mom was away tons of times, so when she came back I didn't want to be a burden, or make her think I was "weird" for what I would have told her.

My belief system is all messed up and I'm still figuring it out, so I'm not sure if I truly felt entities, or if it was hallucinations. It may have even been a mix of both. My many lines of ancestors (I'm mixed all the way back, so I have a lot of cultural bg) believed in very similar things to what I experienced as well. So it's really hard to say.

I do think I hallucinated and had delusions. There was this one thing, when I was in like 2nd grade or something, that started out as a delusion- a strong feeling of a malevolent presence, and eventually when I'd go to sleep I'd start seeing people standing outside of my 1st story bedroom window, and I'd see them in my closet. Occasionally I'd go up to my parents room and sleep with them, but it would get so bad that apparently I'd end up huddled in the corner of their room (I don't remember this, though).
Now, there was history of many deaths near that house and the houses on the same street because of deep historical significance, so I'm not sure if it was me seeing entities or hallucinating.

But I did see really big, round, black squirrels that were the size of balloons that no one saw, and I saw another animal-like thing that may have also been an entity (I've been researching it recently).
Around 3rd grade is when I could physically feel everyone's stares on me, and heard everyone talking about me when my back was to them. I would be so paranoid, but being bullied might have been a stressor of my psychosis.

I've heard whispering, people laughing at me, and weird voices that feel like deities or entities ever since I can remember, and I never could tell if it was my imagination, if it was coming from me, or someone else. I still can't, to be honest.
Also I did occasionally hear music, but it was music I've never heard before.

I definitely knew something was "wrong" or different back then, and I never understood what it was until I figured out how to use a computer and did some research. When I started telling my family, they never believed me because childhood schizophrenia is "rare". I don't know if I even had that or if the diagnosis changes when you become an adult. But I definitely had some pretty strong psychotic symptoms.

[lucky2001]

I started hearing voices when I was 8. I think I was delusional around that age as well. I thought I was a puppet and was being controlled by "a greater force".

[transient]

Originally Posted by lucky2001

I started hearing voices when I was 8. I think I was delusional around that age as well. I thought I was a puppet and was being controlled by "a greater force".

This was similar to me. I thought that the left side of my body was controlled by the devil, and the right by god.

[Radio_Dawn]

As a kid I saw demons and ghosts... my teen years I thought I saw "Jesus" and spirits. I was a Christian back then that believed in a literal translation of the bible.... so I believed the hallucinations to be real. I stopped believing in all that and now I do not see demons and Jesus... but I still see what looks like "ghosts/spirits" once in a while.

Music? I still hear music in my head... my head is like a radio that plays only bits and pieces of songs. None of the music I hear is of my own creation -- just music from others I've heard over the years.