Roll Call 25

Yeah I just got off the phone with him. He says things are the same. It feels like things have shifted. Idk, it's really just another guy. I hate this feeling though. I should probably hold out on sleeping with him. I just wanna really bad.

Just another guy, just another guy...

Do things at your own pace. Don't rush into things you're not ready for.

See what I want is like sex twice a week, but somebody that is faithful. Somebody to go out and do things with but somebody that's not clingy. He's gone from one extreme to the other bc I told him I need time to myself. Now he's being standoffish. He says he's not, but he is.

Maybe he's confused what you want. Have you told him what you want in the relationship?

Yes. He just has really backed off. He says he hasn't but idk. He has to work again tomorrow at 4 am. So I probably won't see him til this weekend I'm guessing. Then I I said I'm lazy and he's like no your not, and I could hear his coworker saying yes u are. So I confronted him on it and he's like he was just joking. It bothered me. Once I get some money I hope to volunteer, ptsd and bp can be debilitating. I hope to live a completely different life. I just need money to drive. The bus stop is too far away and it hurts bc of my back injury...

I hate my life right now!!

Fing moderators...some are in that organization and pissed I'm speaking out against it. I WILL take them to court over freedom of speech...

Not sure what advice to give you. Maybe tell him what he can do so he doesn't seem to stand offish or tell him specifically what makes you feel that way so he can improve on it.

What happened?

Oh I tried to post something and wasn't allowed to. Hi notz

I'm not gonna worry about it. Just another stupid day in the life. I think I'm pmsing...

lol you do seem all over the place. Hopefully it is just PMS.

I think so...Lol.

This guy was like u seem grumpy. And..I called my sons dad, told him how he needs to be a father. It's true though...

Explains my being so tired the last few days. I really just want peace and love, honestly...

Ah, you have a son? Single mother... that can be stressing. Especially since your sons father isn't taking responsibility.

Well here is my site/blog.Inside the mind of a schizophrenic
I will be adding on to it as I go and I will try to post more content and update the blogs when I feel like it.lol

He never has. Let him move in with him and his other son who is 23 tricked my son into eating brownies laced with weed.

My son's dad did try but my son is really intimidated by him. He said tonight my son is just pissed and needs to let it out. He does (my son) he just needs to express his feelings, but he's too afraid to. It's so hard, my son is 18 now, I wish I could save him from any horrible feeling, but he needs to learn...

Maybe your son can benefit on seeing a counselor to help him express those feelings.

Keep us posted!

Yeah I've had him in a lot of therapy. He says he wants to get back into it. How's ur ex boyfriend doing?

I just put the link to the blog in my signature.I already added 7 blog posts and made a list of 6 categories in it.

My ex boyfriend is doing alright. He seems to manage to get some thoughts together with his grandmother's passing. They weren't close but it is family so I'm sure there's some emotions going on. I hope he's as alright as he seems when I talk to him.

Well that sounds good. How are u doing? Did u hear from that guy?

Today I see my pdoc.maybe he can take me off this prozac it makes me feel so bad.it does not mix well with haldol.