Roll Call 27

Lets do this

I will make the first post.I am hoping to get my haldol tapered up this wednesday so that I can feel better.lately I have been feeling so weird like someone is messing with me toying with my emotions and my state of mind not sure if its because of my schizophrenia or if someone really IS messing with me.the thought of someone or something being inside of my mind being able to hear my thoughts or influence them really scares me.

Thanks for starting this...I'm impressed you got the last one to 1000 exactly...better for anyone with OCD-like symptoms

well I wanted it to be at a perfect 1000 lol.I do have a slight ocd when it comes to numbers sometimes.uneven numbers annoy me that is why I cant wait to turn 24 lol.

i belong somewhere. i have to remind mysef that sometimes. im part of the psychiatric community. you know how everyone has a place in society they belong? well thats where i belong. ive almost always known that. im part of the consumers

It apparently a common comorbid condition with psychosis just like anxiety etc...my pdoc used to have a giant book just on OCD in his office...

That is interesting.I dont have much of an ocd about anything besides numbers that I am aware of.

You know it's funny but I was thinking the other day that I've always wanted to be able to help people without having to actually talk to them irl due to anxiety but somehow having been sick gave me the opportunity to log on here and try to help people at a distance... in the very way I always wanted...it's like I was meant to be here all along....and strangely the voices said that I would be able to help people and it would just happen....weird...

Yeah most people I know don't actually have the real OCD they just have like tendencies like papers and pencils etc on their desk have to be at perfect right angles etc. coins have to be sorted etc. The full OCD has these intrusive thoughts that are a lot like delusions so I can see how they connect though...

my cousin has ocd with things being in perfect order like that all his shirts are folded and ordered by color all his items are in order on his desk all his shoes are in order smallest to biggest black to brown.And you are right you do help sometimespsychotic you were like the first person in the sz and psychosis forum that helped me out when I was first posting here.you always have helpful info.thanks for that!

well I need to go do my laundry before I forget Its already piled up pretty high in the hamper lol.

I've gotta do mine tomorrow too
I've just had zero motivation lately.

So many family problems and stuff, social services, fighting, lawyers, crying, laughter bla bla screaming, tension, anxiety, guilt, crazy I had one HELL of a weekend. So much stress turned to panic but no paranoia. It just stopped there =D I used that stress as motivation to move into my old room which took 3 hours. I'm kind of a stress junky.

i hate waking up. it takes so long to be fully awake. like i got up at 8am and i just want to go lie down again. i work today 2-8.i cleaned a little bit. what u said SometimesP is true. i only cleaned bc my friend is coming over tomorrow.

I understand OCD as my son has it and i had a mild form of it at one time in my life. I t can be debilitating but if you get help you can lick it.

I was absolutely convinced I was going to die last night. Not like suicidal, I just felt like someone had granted me the knowledge that it was my time. I realized it was probably a delusion, and that I'd forgotten my risperidone for a few days, so I took it. I think I feel better.

Well my new routine is going well so far. Managed to get up even though I'm knackered and keeping up with personal hygiene. Also started reading more difficult books in preparation. Not easy but getting through it. I refuse to fail again

I no longer trust my own brother to listen to my knowledge. If I tell him what I'm thinking, he'll believe the people posing as my MH team instead of me. I am suspicious of everyone and on edge.

I'm about to go to an interview and audition for a theatre production. I've worked with them before so hopefully it will go well.

Great luck to you! Let us know how it goes

Wow roll call is dead.

A lot of people don't post here anymore for some reason

got it peirced today. what do you guys think? or should i take it out?

I think it looks awesome newtus I have always been a fan of piercings.

Hello everyone! I've just not been online much lately. Then over the weekend I went to my sisters out in the country. I needed to get away bad. Anyway I'm gonna try and make some changes. I dectivated my fb bc it was just triggering my ptsd. I'm hoping to start doing a walking video as long as I can, until the pain comes, and build up. and I'm gonna try and stay on a sleep schedule. Wish me luck.

How is everyone?