Roll Call 28

so last night my mom said she was worried about T cuz he;s been sick for a while. and that made me worried. then i got scared that he was gonna die. so i texted him and told him i was scared he might die and that i couldnt stop thinking about it. but he texted me back and said "im not gonna die" so that made me feel a lot better.

my mom helped me vacuum my car and wipe it down. it looks so much better!!! im hanging out here for a while then going home cuz i have to work at 7am tomorrow morning. not looking forward to it but oh well, gotta get paid.

hope ur all having a good weekend!

ew my dad accidently left a condom on my desk

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Yes I can but right now she is at my little brother's baseball game.

Maybe he's just concerned? Maybe he left it there just in case you need it?

I am assuming you mean a brand new unopened one? I really hope that's what you mean!

"I'm climbing my own mountain without any safety equipment"

omg wtf

Can you call her?

"I'm climbing my own mountain without any safety equipment"

i told T that i get scared hes gonna die because he means a lot to me and i think about the people i care a lot about dying and i get scared. im sure it has to do with my dad getting sick and dying.

I think... But this has been going on for about 3 days and I go by a rule in which if it happens three times I tell someone. I intend to tell her when she kisses me goodnight. As of the moment I can hold back the thoughts fairly well. Just to be safe i will not pack my pocketknives for camp. I leave early tomorrow. I should be able to last.

How would you do that? If you have an impulse and no way to act on it, the impulse will eventually pass.

Suicidal feelings are extremely uncomfortable. I've had them myself and been in very dark places. It's probably a sign you need to change something.

I really think you should talk to your mother about how you've been feeling before you leave for camp.

lol i dont think so. its all tattered and dog-eared. theres been a few times where theyve fallen out of his wallet. i think it was an accident. i can ask him when he gets home but i think it was just an accident. i surely dont need it.

Wow. Didn't see that coming.

How does one accidentally leave a condom on someone else's desk?

Sounds like it's an old one that he's had in his wallet for a while. It should probably be thrown away because after a while they aren't good anymore.

i think it fell out of his wallet. but then again i dont remember him having his wallet out on my desk or in my room

hahaha i know. so weird right?

Good thinking. Reduces the chance of acting out impulsively. Told you you were a smart cookie.

You should just ask him about it. I'm sure he'll have an explanation.

He's probably had it in his wallet for a while and just forgot about it.

Yes I definitely will.

Just know that we are here to support you. Like I said before a lot of us deal with these type of thoughts. Please never listen to them. Suicide is never the answer!

Apparently telling the truth about someone in public opens me up to legal liability with libel and defamation. I give up, hahahaha.

did something happen?

To make a very long story short, yes.

Atypical

Whatever happened to freedom of speech??