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There are demons in my bed room talking to me telling me to not listen to God
telling me to be blasphemous i already have blasphemous thoughts because of my OCD
but there telling me to stop listening to God and start listening to the devil
am scared am going to sin
Am also scared that there going to possess me
i know that i have evil inside of me and am a bad person i feel like self injuring because of this
my husband dont believe me he says am ill
but i dont think i am

[Sometimes psychotic]

You don't have to do anything they say....they can't make you do anything and if they were strong enough to possess you they would just do that instead of trying to talk to you. Do you have any rituals to deal with this? Some people burn sage others rely on holy water or oil....sometimes just forcefully asking them to leave or praying for help from God is enough....

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I am so scared
i dont know if i can stop them from taking over
The demons are powerful
i will pray
Thank you

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

There are demons in my bed room talking to me telling me to not listen to God
telling me to be blasphemous i already have blasphemous thoughts because of my OCD
but there telling me to stop listening to God and start listening to the devil
am scared am going to sin
Am also scared that there going to possess me
i know that i have evil inside of me and am a bad person i feel like self injuring because of this
my husband dont believe me he says am ill
but i dont think i am

Do you have a therapist to talk to? Maybe you can talk to a pastor?

You shouldn't have to go through this alone.

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I dont have T at the moment or someone i can talk to
The last person who id normally trust isnt what i thought they where
its was a minster but i dont trust him any more because he belittled me in public

Praying helps me. Also listening to calming nature sounds and lighting candles. I'm sorry u feel so scared. I'm kinda feeling scared too.

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I dont have T at the moment or someone i can talk to
The last person who id normally trust isnt what i thought they where
its was a minster but i dont trust him any more because he belittled me in public

I don't blame you for not wanting to talk to that pastor then. Sometimes I've called a church that I'd never been to and just talked about things. Most pastors, IMO want to help people, even strangers. Maybe that would even be better, to talk to a pastor, priest or chaplin you can talk to over the phone. You don't necessarily have to meet them or even tell them your real name. You can always hang up on them if they get too nosey or make you feel uncomfortable. It has to be something you feel at ease with. Nobody should put you down either.

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AM now in the living room there going to hurt my husband
because he isnt Christian
my husband is an atheist
he dont believe me that am seeing the demons
he says am ill and that i should go to bed

[Sometimes psychotic]

If he can't hear them he should be safe....

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I know i should go to bed but am too scared too
there saying am going to hell because am a bad person
i am a bad person

Need to cut
my arms are all scatted dont know if it was me or the demons
Am listening to Christian rock at the moment to try and down them out

My niece is here as well
is she safe from them ?
what if they hurt her

[Sometimes psychotic]

I think she is safe too most people don't hear them....

[insilence]

Try salt in doorways/windows. Get green healing stones at a spirit shop snd place around house or yard. Have a cleanser bless you and house

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I know i should go to bed but am too scared too
there saying am going to hell because am a bad person
i am a bad person

Need to cut
my arms are all scatted dont know if it was me or the demons
Am listening to Christian rock at the moment to try and down them out

My niece is here as well
is she safe from them ?
what if they hurt her

Asphyxia, please talk to someone today even if it's over the phone. Just pick a church in the phonebook and call them. You can tell them that you just want to talk to them over the phone. I'm sure they can help. If not, call another church. Please.

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I cant i dont trust them at all
i was abused by a priest am scared of them id never seek one out
I cant talk to them

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I cant i dont trust them at all
i was abused by a priest am scared of them id never seek one out
I cant talk to them

OK, I didn't know about the priest so I'm sorry I suggested it. Can you think of anybody you could call just to talk about what you're hearing? What about a crisis helpline? I'm really concerned about what you're going through but don't know what to suggest other than calling someone. I hope you keep posting though so you can let people know the latest.

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I ended up self injuring because of the demons my husband still don't believe me
i havent been on the forum since i posted before as i have been having internet problems

i can try and call a crisis line

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I ended up self injuring because of the demons my husband still don't believe me
i havent been on the forum since i posted before as i have been having internet problems

i can try and call a crisis line

Yeah I think you should or you can even call a warm line...it's peer support...

Warmlines

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I ended up self injuring because of the demons my husband still don't believe me
i havent been on the forum since i posted before as i have been having internet problems

i can try and call a crisis line

I'm sorry you felt the need to harm yourself. Maybe if you could focus on getting help from outside instead counting on your husband to help you, it might work. I'm sure he cares but some spouses don't understand unless they're going through something themselves. My husband's that way. He's never understood about my depression and borderline personality disorder. He doesn't want to even try and learn. He thinks that only physical problems like diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. are real and serious. He's very uneducated to say the least.

That's why I've had to reach out to others like therapists, group therapy and online sites like this one. Sometimes I call the crisis hotline just to talk to someone because I know it's imperative especially when I feel so bad that I don't want to talk to anyone. That's a tell tell sign. I allow myself to have safety nets in place because I know just having one is too risky.

I've been thinking about you over the last couple of days and have prayed even I'm not known as a praying person. That's not to say that I don't believe in the power of prayer and meditation.

I hope you'll start to feel better soon just because you know there are quite a lot of option these days. No one has to suffer alone.

Please take care and send me a private message if you feel like it.

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I Called the crisis team they told me to take more of my medication
witch i have and a phoned a crisis line as well
The demons are still there here is also a group of monks outside my living room window my husband says he dont see them
there talking in a funny language

[insilence]

Sea salt in doorways and windowcills, green stones placed at borders of yard, find someone to cleanse you with sage

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

I Called the crisis team they told me to take more of my medication
witch i have and a phoned a crisis line as well
The demons are still there here is also a group of monks outside my living room window my husband says he dont see them
there talking in a funny language

I'm glad you're calling people. If you don't mind my asking, do you have any children? Do you have family besides your husband and niece? I think you wrote that she came and stayed with you. Do you have a medical dr.?

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No i dont have children i do however have my nieces and nephew visit from time to time
i see my regular dr once a month

[manxcatwoman]

Originally Posted by -Asphyxia-

No i dont have children i do however have my nieces and nephew visit from time to time
i see my regular dr once a month

I'm glad you have family. I don't have children either but I have a niece and a few nephews. I'm glad you go to your dr. too. I just had a physical but I need to go back to therapy. I haven't been in the last few mos. My depression is coming back. He's helps me put things into perspective.

Maybe you can get some sleep over the next few days. I hope so. Let me know how things are going.