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Sorry for not being around
Voices are loud
My husband now locks the doors and keeps my bus pass
I cant go anywhere with out him
i cant go and see my psych until October because my husband has court in September and we cant change it he is a jury person
Am really struggling at the moment
Am taking my medication and am trying to go to the hearing voices groups
when i can going to other groups as well
saw my dad he made me promise that i will not go missing again
he didn't understand my reasons for it

People in the living room want me to hurt my husband cant say anything he will be mad
telling me to go to bed he always tell me to go to bed even when am not tired

[insilence]

i hope this helps. i use directed imagination imaging to quiet my voices. ttry thinking of microphones in your brain, ears and body connected to the voices and see them shrinking so the voices get quiet, also use external objects to block like coal tar soap on paper and charcoal mesh. there is much needed to quiet them over time. expiriment with non self harming methods.

I'm sorry that you're struggling and that your family don't seem to understand. Have you tried listening to music loud through headphones? I always found that helpful to drown out the voices and calm myself down with my favourite songs. Perhaps you could try that the next time you are sent to nap when you're not tired? I really hope that the hearing voices group is helpful. Perhaps they will have other suggestions?

*Willow*

[manxcatwoman]

I'm glad you're posting again, A. I've missed you. You're in a very tough situation to say the least. I wish someone could stay with you and drive you around until you can get your bus ticket back. You definitely need a friend or relative you can share with. I know you've mentioned your niece before. If you have a good relationship with her, maybe she could come over. I wish you could go to your therapist before Oct. Maybe your husband can find a way so you can go in Sept. As far as him telling you to go sleep all the time, tell him it doesn't feel good to constantly sleep. Sometimes when I'm depressed, I want to sleep but I know it's not good for me. It just makes matters worse.

Whatever happens, I hope you can get a break from the voices. It must be emotionally draining.

Please continue to post.

Take care.