What was negative about today....

Who told u that???

Try posting to roll call 38.

Do you mean 37?

No I created 38 to test for willow there may be a glitch with 37

I'm so exhausted. This is what happens with mood disorders. They took me down to low. Now I have no energy.

I swear it's like I have to see a real pdoc like weekly. Too much tweaking needs to be done...Ugh

She hasn't replied. Did anyone pm?

Yes, and it doesn't work even at the maximum dose.

Thank you for the support guys I'm sorry I overreacted. I have had a pretty crappy week and I was already upset before I logged in and then, when I found that I couldn't post, I felt really paranoid. But I'm fine now.

*Willow*

Ugh... my voices got the loudest they have during this period of psychosis in the middle of the night. Could make the voice out very clearly but thankfully I managed to ignore it after a while & get back to sleep. Was hard trying to stay calm & not let it get to me though.

My doctor gave me melatonin after not sleeping for two days last week. All it did was let me sleep for 30 minutes and then wake me up with the most vivid nightmare I've ever had. Didn't sleep for the rest of the night. It's useless. I was so angry that he wouldn't give me a proper sleeping pill, it's a joke.

It won't work if I haven't been up for at least 14 or 15 hours. When I am really desperate I use lorazepam. It works as long as I don't use it regularly.

The stuff is useless for non-24 hour free running circadian rhythm disorder.

I think the motherboard on my computer failed again.....

My whole body is sore. I did way too much yesterday. I'm still extreme. I don't wanna lose that part of me but I have to be careful with it. I don't do much then go full force. Ugh and I don't think the ibuprofen is working anymore. I take a lot of it. I'm gonna schedule an appt with my Dr and see what other options I have. I guess just rest today. Totally sucks...

My mother won't wear her hearing aids. I'm going deaf because of it.

She says she doesn't understand the television with them, yet hears people talking just fine. I think she is full of s***.

T cancelled my session. It doesn't look like we're going to be able to reschedule this week. I'm wondering if it's the universe telling me not to tell him stuff, because I was finally going to tell him about the Govt stuff. Idk, maybe it's good he cancelled...

*Willow*

the rude hormonal pregnant ***** at work has come back bc she had her baby and shes still rude.

My computer hasn't worked for yrs. I get online with my kindle. But it's acting up. If it goes out I'm not sure what I'll do.

Sorry about your motherboard...

I have a similar sort of problem... my Dad's hearing is starting to go & he listens to the TV/Radio very loud. I'm sure my hearing has suffered a bit because of it.

He sometimes doesn't hear what people are saying when talking to them too but he refuses to even check to see if he needs hearing aids, which I'm sure he does.

The only good thing he's done is get a pair of wireless headphones... he can listen to the TV with those at a separate volume from the speakers on the TV. I wish he'd just go to see the Doctor though.

I still feel feverish and lazy. Yesterday I went to bed around 12:30 pm and slept all day or about 13 hours, which is why I am up so early. I'm not sure what is going on. The bones in my hands don't hurt as much today.

I think people are watching me again... same house & flat that overlook my garden in certain places. People standing in the window just as I go out to smoke. It can't be a coincidence.

having a ****** rollercoaster of emotion day. i really hope i just have pms right now. if its not pms then i dont know what is happening to me. T has been helpful cuz i have been texting him . i texted my mom but it just made me feel more hopeless and i cried for an hour in bed. my car is in the shop but i am going to go get it soon. ive been looking for other jobs but theres nothing. i hate my job. the schedule for thsi week isnt even out yet and it was supposed to be out yesterday. if i go check again when i get my car that will be the 4th time ive been there to see my schedule. if its not out this next time idk what im gonna do.

so yea negative day in general

having a negative day too. everythings just down the drain.

Can't you just call to see what day you need to work next then get the schedule when you go to work?

The plumber, my back. The bathroom, my back. The shirts, my back. The garbage, my back. And the plumber hasn't been in here yet! He's coming back.

Our cycles are in sync. I'm PMS'ing too.