Roll Call 42

yea he did. and my mom and sister seemed to like theirs too. thanks for asking

probably the highlight of my day tho was when we watched a few old videos of my sister and i from about 9 years ago when i was 15. i forgot how old she was then. christmas 2005.

maybe anyone would like to share what they got for christmas?

25 dollar gift card, 100 bucks worth of cash, DVD's, PJ's, Socks, an outfit, underwear, dry erase markers, sharpies, gel pens, hairbrushes, bath set, hair remover thing, bra, a phone, candy, and popcorn. Then there's whatever I'm getting from my dads.

that sounds cool. hopefully you like your stuff.

ugh i got bras too.

sorry to bother you guys with this post but im really stressed out. i just found out 2 assignments i have to do for phys ed class is about my weight. one of the assignments i have to records what i eat and the calories and stuff like that for 3 days. the other assignment i have to still write down what i plan to eat in the future and what i plan to do if i want to lose weight (or if i want to gain/maintain. whatever). im so scared because i dont want to lie but i dont want to tell the truth about how much im eating and what im eating. because honestly i eat maybe around 500 calories a day. im so damn nervous...

Yeah, I'm happy with what I got this year. The bra I got is a sports bra. I'm using it as a second bra to put on for more support. I'm in the DDD's so my chest is big. lol I'm in dire need of some fitting bras.

IDK, I would just be honest. It's not like they can send you to a hospital for an eating disorder. Though, honestly... 500 calories a day is too few calories.

oh **** im a B.

yea i didnt think they could send me to a hospital but im starting to be really embarrassed by it. like its not something i wanna talk about. its not something i want people to know/see about me.

i even didnt know if i wanted to make that post here about it especially after everyone said something negatively about it. when i originally talked about it on here i genuinely thought everyone would be happy for me trying to lose weight and eat very little. because i gaind weight from meds and i thought some or most people could relate to it in some way. i didnt really understand - i guess - what people would think but i shouldve thought it through more.

but since im feeling stressed i figure id say something. idk really...

I'm sorry if I've been too harsh about that newtus, I just want you to be okay. You know I can relate to how much it sucks to gain so much weight on AP's. It's hard to get the weight off.

ugh **** feel like **** right now. im taking my xanax. im having an anxxiety attack right now. way too much has been going on around me - for me - these past two months. its too much to handle and take in. ive been having severe panic attacks for about two months.

Sorry to hear this.

I know when my life gets really hectic I can start falling apart too, my anxiety is nowhere near as bad as yours but I do get really paranoid.

yea i suppose i figured others could relate.

i get really paranoid too.

i just idk if i can do school anymore. its just too stressful for me. it didnt really get stressful until i had to start doing physical activity everyday. and now i have to write a paper and do more work.

i think i extremely overestimated how much i could actually do school. ...again - like i have every single time...
my face is actually breaking out in acne because of stress from everything.

Just got home from a great Christmas dinner.

I didn't get anything and that's what I asked for.

the last 2-3 years i actually didnt ask for anything for christmas so i got money and trinkets. looking back on that now idk why i felt i slightly upset for not getting more this year because i dont really need anything. i did need at least 1 thing tho this year and i did get it.

im sorry about the profanity TheWell.

Just got home from Christmas dinner and gift exchanging with my family. It was nice, we had crab and prime rib. But I left early, I get overwhelmed. My sister Kim was having some friends over and I just feel uncomfortable. They're so different than me. But my son stayed, I want him to have a good time.

Anyway, was a good day.

I can't do school anymore, I hate saying that but it's true. I know it'd be too much stress. I'm sorry you're stressed out.

I got, Salon shampoo and conditioner, wax burner, some make up, a really nice charger, a 100$ gift card for Amazon, chocolates, and a candle. I also got a necklace from my son.

What did your dad get you?

just my dad? he got me an iphone 6. $200 cash. 30 dollars worth itunes cards. duck dynasty christmas cd. and some trail mix.

Well I'm lying here awake...didn't get to sleep until 11 now I'm awake for the second time tonight....have on the calming ocean waves. The relatives were playing taboo or some equivalent all night and enjoying the heck out of countdowns and buzzers that were stressing me and my mom out. I didn't play and she just quit...you couldn't even talk to anyone...it was different....I'm not sure if I'm awake due to that or travel anticipation. I will be glad to be home at this point.

I'm happy Christmas is over.

Me too in a way although it was a very nice, quiet and special feeling day. But when you're alone it's hard to keep your spirits up thinking of all the family and friends you don't have. Speaking of myself, of course.