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hey guys thanks for ur support. i made it through the night and i did not die. so T was right and i can trust him.

what r ya'll doin 4 new years tonight?

Tonight I will be drinking at home with my older brother. Then tomorrow I'll be at my mum's house celebrating.

Glad you survived JunkDna, it wouldnt be the same around here without you!

i havent really said much about this but ive been having chest pains since november and i thought they were related to anxiety but i dont think most of my chest pains are. i thought i was going to die in my sleep last night.

i feel like they are going to kill me

my chest really hurts there trying to rip my heart out

im gonna try and brave it and go to a store to see if i can spend some of my gift card. i took a prn and im gonna take some with me just in case

You should really go to the doctor to get this worked up.....seriously...I'm only guessing about what it could be the doctors can do tests to figure out more. We don't want to lose you.....

i dont understand all the science terms. i need something easier to read. but ill see about going to the doctor i guess...

Probably the doctor can explain it better but it just means a your heart can beat irregularly.....but I really don't know for sure that's what is going on so you for sure need to get it worked up....

just called my doctor but hes closed for the holidays and wont be open until jan 5

guys there not going away!!!!!! :'(

If it gets really bad you might even want to go to the ER. It could just be a panic attack but it might be something else. You should probably mention it to your dad just in case......

Can you do something distracting like playing music or something? Can you talk to your mom?

i have been doin both its not helping i even cleaned

Sorry for posting random ****the other night about taking all my pills. I have to stop taking ambien, I get really messed up on it, black out and do stupid things. I don't remember a thing from the other night, just went back to check what I posted. I've been asleep for the last 24hours or so, I didn't want to overdose, I had zero intention. My life is going pretty good right now. Then I take 2 ambien and this happens. Feck that! Sorry guys.

Have you tried singing? that works best for me.....

i would but there screaming at me

yea i just told him. most of my chest pain is from panic attacks and anxiety but the past two months its sometimes been hurting for no reason and its been worse this month. but i also had a lot of deep panic this month and last month too so idk. after my aunt died ive been going downhill. before she died i was doing pretty good. still had flareups but not as much. was rarely hearing voices before she died but this month its been everyday. and seeing things everyday. still paranoid but getting more delusional i suppose. i hate that word. this month has been the worst for me than in the past 6 months. the beginning of the year and end has been bad but the middle was kinda ok.

im afraid im going to die. its like sometimes i want to die but i want it to be on my terms. nothing is great about dying unexpectedly or by the hands of someone else.

now im just on a tangent sorry...

my chest hurts now but idk if its from anxiety. i ate a poptart and slim jim this morning.

recording of that please haha

Nobody said I was good at it....sometimes I just sing Inside my head....that actually works too.....

could my chest and left arm be hurting cuz im worrying about it so much now?

SometimesP i wouldnt find it near as funny if you were good at it. the worse the better in this instance. please reconsider

Newtus i hope your chest pains etc are from anxiety and subside soon.

It's possible but I would go to some sort of urgent care to get my blood pressure taken just to be sure.....