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you have a pretty smile erti

luckily i think my teeth might be whitening up from staying away from smoking

Me too. It puts a face on a person when talking to someone online.

It's good that you've quit smoking! A lot of health benefits from quitting. You smoke the ecigs?

yea im vaping right now.

well ive got some good news...

i got an A in my class...

then again it was physical education. slightly easy. i feel like i just got lucky kinda. idk if im gonna get that kind of grade in my spring classes...

That's great, newtus! I know you didn't like parts of it, so it is still excellent that you got an A.

That's awesome newtus!

thats the first A ive ever gotten in a college class

Congratulations, seriously that's something to be proud of!

Yay for the A!

i dont feel good i feel dizzy

theres been tons of earthquakes near dallas tx. we think its from fracking

i told my pdoc yesterday that taking trazadone made me feel like i smoked weed. he was surprised. idk why. the side effects are strong especially the dosage im on. i do not like the side effects at all

Great job, newtus!

omg congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well my mental health team came today. I told them about what's going on and they had the cheek to tell me that I'm really unwell. The psychiatrist has increased my meds. Now I'm on 20mg of olanzapine. And they're getting the crisis team involved. I just want to scream.

congrats on ur class newtus! my semester started today.

i want to go a thrift store to buy a coffee table but im really ambivalent abt leaving my apartment

Well done Newtus

I wish I had some lorazapam.

Starstrike - I was seeing the crisis team this time last year - it sucks.

Sorry you've had to deal/have to deal with those idiots. What exactly is the point of the crisis team??? How does visiting each day to ask the same stupid Qs they already know the answers to actually supposed to help?? The entire concept confuses me.

T and I have parted ways as of last night. He contacted my GP this morning to 'tell on me' and told me to make an appt with my GP, but I haven't and I'm not going to. I asked him for help, but he refused and I don't know why...and then palms me off on my GP who he knows is incapable of helping. So I'm officially done now. I said at the beginning of T with him that this was my last chance. Oh well. I'm actually past caring at this point.

*Willow*

Got back from seeing my counselor for the first time. She wants me to read a packet on dissociation.

I cleaned more today. I did some laundry, swept, folded clothes, and made my bed. Been watching Attack on Titian for most of the day (it's an anime) so not too bad of a day. Waiting for my boyfriend to come home so we can have dinner.

Do you like her or is it too early to tell?

what do u mean "tell on you"? why did he refer u to ur GP? did he think he couldn't help?

sorry things aren't working out for u. i hope u find some kind of support that benefits u instead of harms u