[A18793715]

Last night, my boyfriend and I were walking around the corner to the store but as soon as I started walking, my paranoia started rising. After like a minute, my voices got more louder so I heard what they were saying. They kept telling me there was hidden snipers waiting for the exact moment and if they killed my boyfriend on accident, oh well. All I remember is pure panic and knowing I had to keep moving. My boyfriend kept saying lets go back but we were already in the stores parking lot and I just cried as soon as I sat down to try to calm down. Finally we went into the store and as soon as I walked back out of the store, it was like my body went into fight or flight mode. The intensity of my paranoia and everything came back. It was so hard to walk and I had to use every ounce of energy inside of me just to make it back, my chest felt like it was collapsing onto my ribs because it was getting so hard to breathe. My boyfriend would randomly stop me and try to help me calm down or collapse on the ground and cry for a second before I would get up to try to make it. I remember at one point I just wanted to scream out to just kill me already because I'm so tired of everything. I don't remember anything after I remember running into my boyfriends room. Apparently I collapsed on the floor and cried for a while until I ran to the bathroom and just dry heaved. I wonder why I woke up with my hair up weird. My boyfriend was sweet and put my hair up apparently while I was dry heaving. According to him, I came into the room and doubled dosed my meds, put something in front of the closet door after checking (which I know I do when I get paranoid and it's my way of making sure that door hasn't been opened) I smoked some weed and drank a mixed alcoholic drink before I calmed down enough to fall asleep. I remember none of that. Nothing past using all of my energy to make it back into his room.

Has anyone else had a bad panic attack in the middle of an episode? Would you call that an episode?

[CANDC]

Hi, sorry to hear you had a panic attack. It sounds like it was a scary experience.

You are lucky to have such a nurturing and patient boyfriend.

You might want to talk to your psychiatrist about how the meds you are on are not helping control the paranoia and panic attacks. Maybe your meds could be adjusted or changed. If they do not think so, you might consider what other options are available for psychiatrists that specialize in your area.

Mixing prescription meds with alcohol and marijuana is a recipe for unpredictable results and possible side affects. Check the manufacturer's recommendations. Exceeding or disregarding those could be a contributing factor to other panic attacks.

[A18793715]

I've been working with my psychiatrist for 5 years now. I've literally been on every single antipsychotic except the only treatment resistant schizophrenia med, clozaril, because we both think the side effects are too extreme. I'm already on a really high dose of anxiety meds. 2mg of Xanax, 4/day and 10mg 2/night for sleep (along with 200mg of vistarill for sleep) and that's it. My secondary diagnosis is panic disorder, I've just never had one like that before. There's no going up. I'm almost at the max legal limit.

And as for the mixing part, I have no memory of that part but my boyfriend said I calmed down enough to fall asleep afterwards.

Hello A...: This certainly sounds as though it must have been a terrifying experience for you. I'm so sorry you had to endure it. I occasionally have similar sorts of experiences... but of a milder variety.

I guess I don't even really have panic attacks as such. I simply get progressively more nervous & uncomfortable the longer I'm out in public. I typically know what's going on & I am able to work my way through it. Then, once I get home, I just find I'm particularly worn down & need to rest.

I also can't say that I've experienced any particular episode of paranoia along with these episodes of progressively heightened anxiety, although there can clearly be an element of paranoia in the mix. (I've just recently gone off of the Duloxetine I was on for over 2 years. Just last night, I had a rather intense episode of paranoia for a period of time. But this was while I was in bed trying to get to sleep. Anyway, the point being I'm not unfamiliar with the experience of paranoia either.)

I'm not sophisticated or knowledgeable enough, with regard to panic attacks or episodes of paranoid delusion to say if that is what you experienced. It certainly makes sense to me, given what you described. I just thought I would share with you the experiences I do have that seem similar albeit milder.

I hope you are feeling better...

[A18793715]

Thank you Ske. I'm glad I'm not the only one where anxiety has mixed like that. I'm feeling better today but I haven't felt right or safe all day. I still want to hide. J

Originally Posted by A18793715

Thank you Ske. I'm glad I'm not the only one where anxiety has mixed like that. I'm feeling better today but I haven't felt right or safe all day. I still want to hide. J

[A18793715]

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[klif74]

Originally Posted by A18793715

Last night, my boyfriend and I were walking around the corner to the store but as soon as I started walking, my paranoia started rising. After like a minute, my voices got more louder so I heard what they were saying. They kept telling me there was hidden snipers waiting for the exact moment and if they killed my boyfriend on accident, oh well. All I remember is pure panic and knowing I had to keep moving. My boyfriend kept saying lets go back but we were already in the stores parking lot and I just cried as soon as I sat down to try to calm down. Finally we went into the store and as soon as I walked back out of the store, it was like my body went into fight or flight mode. The intensity of my paranoia and everything came back. It was so hard to walk and I had to use every ounce of energy inside of me just to make it back, my chest felt like it was collapsing onto my ribs because it was getting so hard to breathe. My boyfriend would randomly stop me and try to help me calm down or collapse on the ground and cry for a second before I would get up to try to make it. I remember at one point I just wanted to scream out to just kill me already because I'm so tired of everything. I don't remember anything after I remember running into my boyfriends room. Apparently I collapsed on the floor and cried for a while until I ran to the bathroom and just dry heaved. I wonder why I woke up with my hair up weird. My boyfriend was sweet and put my hair up apparently while I was dry heaving. According to him, I came into the room and doubled dosed my meds, put something in front of the closet door after checking (which I know I do when I get paranoid and it's my way of making sure that door hasn't been opened) I smoked some weed and drank a mixed alcoholic drink before I calmed down enough to fall asleep. I remember none of that. Nothing past using all of my energy to make it back into his room.

Has anyone else had a bad panic attack in the middle of an episode? Would you call that an episode?

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[A18793715]

I don't believe in demons, ghost, etcetera. So I don't believe demons or anything like that caused it.

[robbi15]

Hi, I am very sorry to hear about your episode... I can tell how you feel...every time I go out..the longer I stay outside my paranoia rises and I get panicky ...although not as severe as yours but it feels like the end of the world. I feel better when I come home and take rest.
I hope you are feeling better.

[A18793715]

Thank you rob.