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Blue_Bird · Aug 09, 2015 at 04:29 PM

Pretty pic Alone and Afraid

Man it's only the second day of my diet and I'm craving candy like mad. I could go for a twix bar, or 10

Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 09, 2015 at 04:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Pretty pic Alone and Afraid

Man it's only the second day of my diet and I'm craving candy like mad. I could go for a twix bar, or 10

Thank you!

Today, is like the third or fourth day of being vegetarian. Last night my boyfriend was eating taquitos and I just sat there and watched him eat them. I remind myself I'm doing this for the better and possibly lose weight. I actually thought about fasting, but there is too many people around me most of the time and they'll make me eat.

newtus · Aug 09, 2015 at 05:45 PM

i just slept like 2 hours

i woke up i thought it was morning again

newtus · Aug 09, 2015 at 06:06 PM

oh by the way
IM EATING TACO BELL!

Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 09, 2015 at 06:50 PM

At Casa Ole we have a creepy looking waiter...

Blue_Bird · Aug 09, 2015 at 07:02 PM

Looking at retro Pokemon toys on ebay, brings back memories. Wish I still had my collection

newtus · Aug 09, 2015 at 07:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Alone_and_Afraid

At Casa Ole we have a creepy looking waiter...

Door2015 knows a whole lot about creepy chefs and waiters! she works with some!

Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 09, 2015 at 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Door2015 knows a whole lot about creepy chefs and waiters! she works with some!

This guys eyes like pierced into my soul. I was scared to talk to him.

I couldn't be a waitress. I'm too anti-social.

newtus · Aug 09, 2015 at 07:34 PM

ive been having some trouble telling my dreams from reality for awhile guys.

i dream about a lot. idk why im having trouble.

ive also been hearing voices lately and having lots of paranoia. ive been on edge. and this was before my chickens died so idk where this stress came from. this has been here for ahwile.

Aug 09, 2015 at 08:04 PM

I'm not bad
I'm not bad
I'm not bad
I'm not bad

I am good, I try to be, but I am not bad. They are wrong about me

Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 09, 2015 at 08:09 PM

I realized if I had never left living with my brother or especially with the evil person, I don't think I would be here today. I'm thankful to live where I live now. Surrounded by people who actually care about me. Even though I'm still suicidal, it's mild compared if I had to live in hell. It's sad that my own family doesn't even care. It hurts a lot to know that both sides of my family hate me in a way. I'm glad I have my boyfriend. Without him, I would be long gone. I never planned my future. I always planned my demise ever since I lived with people who abuse me physically and mentally which was at the age of 9 (after my mom passed). It's worse ever since my dad passed away two years ago because the people who cared the most about me are gone. If it wasn't for my boyfriend or his family, I wouldn't be here. It's strange to think about this. The doctor said I'll continue to have bad thoughts. I just need to control them. I see a therapist Tuesday to help.

Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 09, 2015 at 08:11 PM

My doctor even told me that he would be more surprised if I was 'normal' because of what I've been through. I used to think everyone had a tough life.

junkDNA · Aug 09, 2015 at 10:32 PM

i saw a movie... it was the gift. it was ok, kinda slow and drawn out. it felt long but was a little over 2 hours.

i also saw a deer on the side of the road. i hate deer so much. they are everywhere here and can really mess your **** up. its worse at night when u cant see them and then BAM they are in front of ur car. i hit a deer once, well it hit me... it just ran into the side of my car. i didnt know wtf happened! anyway thats my deer rant.

Blue_Bird · Aug 10, 2015 at 07:51 AM

Good morning!

Door2015 · Aug 10, 2015 at 08:30 AM

Good morning Blue bird! I've got to get ready to go to work in a few, but I was able to catch up at least on the last few days. Hugs to everyone. I'm drinking coffee out of my favorite Dalek cup. My sister made it for me and it's shooting an extermination beam of hearts. Although, the hearts are starting to wear off. But that seems reasonable coming from a Dalek. Last night at work was odd. It was distressing and enjoyable, just not at the same time. Idk what I'm going to do about this chef. At least I don't have to see him till Thursday. Have a good day, y'all. If I'm lucky I'll be back on after work.

Blue_Bird · 09:12 AM

Hey Door, hope work goes good for you

I figured out what my next tattoo will be!! Hello Kitty as a zombie!

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Alone_and_Afraid · Aug 10, 2015 at 09:49 AM

Good morning!

I had a dream that my boyfriend tricked me into eating a hamburger.

Aug 10, 2015 at 10:36 AM

God, just looking over my linkedin. It makes me look soooo much better than I actually am. I guess that's the point really but I've been out of the loop for over 2 years and my skills are fading. My next job probably won't be a software engineer like it should be at this stage but probably behind the counter at subway. Ughh, I really messed up.

Aug 10, 2015 at 10:37 AM

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Originally Posted by Alone_and_Afraid

Good morning!

I had a dream that my boyfriend tricked me into eating a hamburger.

Was it a good hamburger?

Aug 10, 2015 at 10:38 AM

Blue_Bird, those colours would look amazing in a tattoo. Don't forget to post a pic when you get it done!

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,917 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 04:29 PM #201 Pretty pic Alone and Afraid Man it's only the second day of my diet and I'm craving candy like mad. I could go for a twix bar, or 10 __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 05:45 PM #203 i just slept like 2 hours i woke up i thought it was morning again __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 06:06 PM #204 oh by the way IM EATING TACO BELL! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Alone_and_Afraid Member Member Since Apr 2015 Location: TX Posts: 398 9 185 hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 06:50 PM #205 At Casa Ole we have a creepy looking waiter... __________________ DX: Depression, OCD, ADHD RX: Prozac (60mg) and Strattera (25mg)

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,917 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 07:02 PM #206 Looking at retro Pokemon toys on ebay, brings back memories. Wish I still had my collection __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Anonymous50123 Guest Posts: n/a	Aug 09, 2015 at 08:04 PM #210 I'm not bad I'm not bad I'm not bad I'm not bad I am good, I try to be, but I am not bad. They are wrong about me

Alone_and_Afraid Member Member Since Apr 2015 Location: TX Posts: 398 9 185 hugs given	Aug 09, 2015 at 08:11 PM #212 My doctor even told me that he would be more surprised if I was 'normal' because of what I've been through. I used to think everyone had a tough life. __________________ DX: Depression, OCD, ADHD RX: Prozac (60mg) and Strattera (25mg)

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,917 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 10, 2015 at 07:51 AM #214 Good morning! __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Alone_and_Afraid Member Member Since Apr 2015 Location: TX Posts: 398 9 185 hugs given	Aug 10, 2015 at 09:49 AM #217 Good morning! I had a dream that my boyfriend tricked me into eating a hamburger. __________________ DX: Depression, OCD, ADHD RX: Prozac (60mg) and Strattera (25mg)

Anonymous37804 Guest Posts: n/a	Aug 10, 2015 at 10:36 AM #218 God, just looking over my linkedin. It makes me look soooo much better than I actually am. I guess that's the point really but I've been out of the loop for over 2 years and my skills are fading. My next job probably won't be a software engineer like it should be at this stage but probably behind the counter at subway. Ughh, I really messed up.

Anonymous37804 Guest Posts: n/a	Aug 10, 2015 at 10:38 AM #220 Blue_Bird, those colours would look amazing in a tattoo. Don't forget to post a pic when you get it done!