Roll Call 63...

I know you weren't asking this question of me but I had a cider with my dinner tonight.... Stella Artois Cidre to be precise.

I've tried soooo many craft ciders and generally drink draught pints of Bulmers/Magners but Stella is my favourite cider, it's just so refreshing to drink. It's impossible to get in pubs here as well which is such a pity. Have you tried Orchard Thieves? It's a new one from Heineken. It's quite nice but very sweet so I won't drink more than two pints of it, but that could be just me.

Apple, pear and black current (Black current I didn't like. Tasted like red wine).

I mix with stimulants anyways as well xd

Ritalin/Concerta (Methylphenidate) + Ethyl alcohol = research chemical that has more euphoria (Ethylphenidate) like how cocaine + Ethyl alcohol = cocaethylene.

orchard theives sound good

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whats that for?

It's a stimulant 4x stronger than methylphenidate. But I't causes cancer I think...

I wouldn't mind being a chemist researching substances. I'd specialize in stimulants leading to one that doesn't cause psychosis for 99% of people.

I feel like I'm on a lot of meds. I'm gonna see tomorrow about getting off Zyprexa and Remeron since both are low dose and I don't think they're really necessary anymore. Then I'll just be on Invega Sustenna, Paxil, Depakote and some prn meds

I was on seven different psych meds at one point before I fired my last pdoc. He just kept adding and adding and never considering whether anything was working against someone else. My new pdoc has me on three meds plus the prn klonopin and I feel much better now.

im on 3 meds right now. plus 4-5 vitamins. i used to be on a lot of psych meds. especially in the hospital but i got it down to 3.

when I used to be depressed and



I feel it tonight, I'm mad at myself

why are you mad at yourself? can you find something distracting to do

There's lots of reasons, I have no life. I'm not in college at the moment because I owe money, I have no friends haha other than my imaginary friends that's how weird I am. I'm fat also

You have us! We care about you.

i think we all sometimes beat up on ourselves and pick out all our flaws we think we have. i do it a lot. i have the same feelings of being weird. i feel like everyone thinks i am a freak constantly. i hope you dont hurt yourself. you do have a life. hang in there

Thanks guys, maybe it's because I'm getting my shot a week later than I was supposed to. Sometimes that affects my mood even though that's not what I'm taking it for

Oh, that would affect me a lot. I bet it has something to do with that. I feel very alone though too. I have truly a weird non life but I'm old enough to just let it all go now anyway.

I find you inspirational bluebird....just FYI....

Lad you are feeling okay.

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Thanks SP that means a lot

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I could have written a similar post. I'm the square peg trying to fit in the circle

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You have us

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knocked 2 things off my list of overwhelming things i need to do: get toby flea med and get new registration/tag sticker. i did it this morning first thing and it felt good to tell T i did those things. he was happy. at work the boss told me i am the fastest cashier with 24 items per minute. the goal is 20. they are tracking it now. im off tomorrow , really glad about that. this girl asked me if she could work my shift on monday (its 11-6) so of course i said yes. but she is kind of a flake so i am worried she wont show. so i will be prepared monday morning just in case.

The alcohol making my meds partially ineffective is what I feared.

No more alcohol...

Edit: Maybe it's because I didn't take any stimulants today.