Roll Call 63...

Here in September, it gets below 0C/32F and now it's sunny and like 15-20 degrees. In the morning it was -8C but blue sky and the moon on the other side. It's usually sunny here though.

I made a long rhyme paragraph freestyle and I realize that I don't need like 200mg of methylphenidate just normal dose which I didn't want to try. It doesn't get me high just hyper focused. Not worth it. I need it as prescribed and it would be unfortunate if that trust was lost. I'm in dept of 10 Concertas which means that I have to wait 5 days without. I took one this morning. The change is so dramatic but it sucks because when I'm on it, I don't think about the crash and then during the crash, I'm convinced that I'll stay that way forever. That's why I don't care to ask my psychiatrist to make it last longer because there's no crash at that time and I think I'm fine.

I have never been so unmotivated in my life two days ago.

When I get income, my mom wants me to buy my own internet router because I keep using up the internet as well as my sister. I'm thinking of just getting a good smart phone that I won't drop all the time and a data plan which is probably better and less expensive than a router.

@AD, no worries just kidding xp I'm not a sociopath either and I'm proud to be human. Only when methylphenidate blunts my emotions.

So to what ever the hell we all have in this life and what will happen, we will click our glasses and say cheers!

Tweaky do you like my signature!

Reminds me how funny my moms reaction was when I was playing IRA as a kid where we made two groups to a word for each group with a letter from every person. You beat them up until they give you their letter xd

Haha I think I remember playing that! I think every true Irish kid played some form of IRA games

Stopped the cogentin. My hands only shake slightly. I don't need any let alone 6mg but I found out that it's quite sedating. I have well over 100 of them and I'll use it as a PRN if it does come back.

Cogentin sedated the **** out of me at 6mg. That was so irritating I can't even.

its more of a clothing brand called Obey. but is a movement i think as well. some sort of art movement. a lot of their clothes say "obey propaganda". its weird because its like you buy their clothes and its propaganda too. like some of their clothes say "make art not war".

Manifesto | OBEY GIANT

I always see the obey stickers.....

my T is going to his brothers(?) wedding, cant remember what he said awhile ago. he is driving to somewhere in SC. there is a hurricane headed towards NC which will bring lots of rain for the area. of course i am worried about my T dying now. always got something to worry about

Hey, everyone. I've been gone for awhile, busy with my new life. Thought I'd stop by and see all my neurodivergent friends.

I still like my job. It's challenging at times, but I really like (most) of my coworkers and clients. It is a very rewarding job. The only thing that sucks are the hours, but there are benefits to working nights and weekends, such as not having to see your boss very often, lol.

I've been seeing a guy for the past month and a half...thinking about breaking it off with him. I feel bad because he is really nice, but I'm just not attracted to him. I wish that I was, but I'm not...also, he is not enough of a feminist for me. He doesn't understand and appreciate the struggles that women go through. Plus, he thinks I need to lose weight.

I think I want to date a girl now, haha.

I just don't know how to break up with him without hurting his feelings or making things awkward. :/

Better tell him sooner than later. Just tell him that you don't feel the chemistry isn't working well. Then size him up and act accordingly. Congrats on your new job!

i believe that psychosis opens up your minds door to philosophical ideas. even if they arent new in the world. and sometimes new ones. i found a note i locked away that i wrote saying the mind is of the spiritual realm and the body is physical realm. thats what Descartes said. this was WAY before i took philosophy 101. 2-3 years before i took it.

Today was good, mostly. I went with my mom and sister to see my dad at the cancer center in Tampa. He has blood clots in his legs and lungs, which he got a filter put in to help with. There are also some abcesses on his liver, but the good thing is they are shrinking. I bought my dad a hat from the gift shop because it is cold in his room. His appearance shocked me at first, but he's still my same dad. I'm glad I got to see him. I'm driving back home tomorrow morning, in about 7 hours. It's better if I drive in the morning, I nearly fell asleep on my way up last night. Coffee to the rescue.

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Great pic Door, glad you got to see him!

Good morning! Going to group later today

Good morning BlueBird!

Nice picture Door, hope your Dad continues getting better!

Good morning everyone. Early to bed, early to rise I suppose. Lol.

Morning everyone!

Maybe it's just me but you seem to always be saying you are going to group, how often do you go?

2 times a week

I'm so tired, I woke up around 3:30 AM and haven't been able to get back to sleep.

Ordered some art supplies

I got up late at 6 but it's still better than getting up at 8 or after. I like the quiet in the early mornings and very late at night. If I could I'd stay up late every night until 6 or 7 or 8 am and sleep through the days like I used to do when I was working. I slept better then and felt better overnight.

Me too. I love that quiet, I prefer it in the early morning hours but I don't mind sitting outside late at night either just soaking up the silence. I would be entirely nocturnal if it weren't for the medications I'm taking. That's how I sleep at night. Before I got relatively stable on medications I was nocturnal and sometimes I do miss that. I got called a vampire a lot back then, lol.

I could use some new art supplies myself, I'm running out of paint...

I got called a vampire too!