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Atypical_Disaster · Oct 29, 2015 at 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

thats how i feel right now and when i drink too much coffee too! i ate a chimichanga and had a beer

Yeah I think I just need to eat something...

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Angelique67 · Oct 29, 2015 at 04:49 PM

I'm wondering if I'm hungry enough to cook a frozen pizza tonight. It's pretty large. I know I can refrigerate the left overs but... I don't know. I've been eating a ton of junk food all week.

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 05:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I'm wondering if I'm hungry enough to cook a frozen pizza tonight. It's pretty large. I know I can refrigerate the left overs but... I don't know. I've been eating a ton of junk food all week.

i say go for it.
unless your trying to lose weight go for it.

Oct 29, 2015 at 05:26 PM

I'm lucky I'm not in jail or the hospital right now after the last two days.

I don't understand how anyone has the ability to post online when they're psychotic. I couldn't even comprehend the internet existed yesterday. Feckin hell man.

12AM · Oct 29, 2015 at 06:04 PM

Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him

Oct 29, 2015 at 06:13 PM

I finally found someone to go see Crimso n Peak with me
And now I am thinking I might not go
I hate horror movies and I get scared easily

Sometimes psychotic · Oct 29, 2015 at 06:35 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him

Welcome !

Oct 29, 2015 at 06:54 PM

I give up. I went from med to med and crazy to sociopath over and over. I can only be 80% of what I use to be, if that even. I hate mood stabilizers because it stole my favorite emotion that I use to have. that moment where you actually feel the music, poem, art, beauty...

This is the best it gets.

Door2015 · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:07 PM

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Originally Posted by chickenfoot

I'm lucky I'm not in jail or the hospital right now after the last two days.

I don't understand how anyone has the ability to post online when they're psychotic. I couldn't even comprehend the internet existed yesterday. Feckin hell man.

Glad that you're feeling better/not in the hospital or jail!

Oct 29, 2015 at 07:13 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him

hi 12!
I'm sure people here can suggest good books to look for

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:14 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him

No its Nico Mirallegro.

Oct 29, 2015 at 07:17 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him

Welcome! ^^

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:31 PM

i can post while psychotic because im not fully psychotic here often anymore. im like halfway there. im slipping a lot but im on meds. meds help...i admit but they dont fully help and id rather be off them.

Door2015 · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:35 PM

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Originally Posted by 0dysseus

I give up. I went from med to med and crazy to sociopath over and over. I can only be 80% of what I use to be, if that even. I hate mood stabilizers because it stole my favorite emotion that I use to have. that moment where you actually feel the music, poem, art, beauty...

This is the best it gets.

I sincerely hope you're wrong. It would be asinine for me to say that "everything will be alright," cause I have no idea if that's true. But no amount of meds has been able to keep your real abilities and passions from coming through. It's evident in how you talk about your book, and the fact that even though you can't always feel it, you treasure the emotions stirred up by music, poetry, art and beauty. So, concerning the 80% of what you used to be...you're not bound by what once was. That's not your limit.

I'm really trying not to get all cheesy here. I'm sorry you're feeling bad, and I'm praying that you feel more like yourself quickly.

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:43 PM

i have to tell you guys something.

today i went into the grocery store and while i was checking out i was trying to open up the bag because at this specific store you have to bag the groceries yourself. while i was trying to open up a plastic bag this woman reached over the 2-way conveyor belt and helped me. she said "they stick sometimes, here you go".

i was so...idk...i felt surprised and nervous and happy. i didnt know people could be so nice. i felt happy. i didnt know what to think. i didnt know someone could be so nice to ME.

she smiled at me.

Door2015 · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:49 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i have to tell you guys something.

today i went into the grocery store and while i was checking out i was trying to open up the bag because at this specific store you have to bag the groceries yourself. while i was trying to open up a plastic bag this woman reached over the 2-way conveyor belt and helped me. she said "they stick sometimes, here you go".

i was so...idk...i felt surprised and nervous and happy. i didnt know people could be so nice. i felt happy. i didnt know what to think. i didnt know someone could be so nice to ME.

she smiled at me.

That's awesome. I think it's a shame that the people youve encountered thus far have fallen so short. It's a reflection on them, not you.

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Door2015

That's awesome. I think it's a shame that the people youve encountered thus far have fallen so short. It's a reflection on them, not you.

well its not everyone ive encountered so far thats been mean. i just have so few people in my life that are actually nice to me.

Door2015 · Oct 29, 2015 at 07:59 PM

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well its not everyone ive encountered so far thats been mean. i just have so few people in my life that are actually nice to me.

Granted. I still wish that you had encountered more people that were nicer to you.

Oct 29, 2015 at 08:11 PM

I can't take these crashes anymore.

newtus · Oct 29, 2015 at 08:18 PM

i just want to forget all my problems and just...idk...do something big.

im stopping my meds.
thats the only way to forget about my problems.

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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,125 (SuperPoster!) 10	Oct 29, 2015 at 04:49 PM #42 I'm wondering if I'm hungry enough to cook a frozen pizza tonight. It's pretty large. I know I can refrigerate the left overs but... I don't know. I've been eating a ton of junk food all week.

Anonymous37804 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 29, 2015 at 05:26 PM #44 I'm lucky I'm not in jail or the hospital right now after the last two days. I don't understand how anyone has the ability to post online when they're psychotic. I couldn't even comprehend the internet existed yesterday. Feckin hell man.

12AM Seeker of Life Member Since Oct 2015 Location: Silver Town of Argyra Posts: 4,786 9 5,508 hugs given	Oct 29, 2015 at 06:04 PM #45 Hi guys, i am new here. About going to check out the bookstore to find new books to read. Newtus, is that adam lambert in your profile? Cause i am a big fan of him __________________ One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋

Anonymous50123 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 29, 2015 at 06:13 PM #46 I finally found someone to go see Crimso n Peak with me And now I am thinking I might not go I hate horror movies and I get scared easily

Anonymous37787 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 29, 2015 at 06:54 PM #48 I give up. I went from med to med and crazy to sociopath over and over. I can only be 80% of what I use to be, if that even. I hate mood stabilizers because it stole my favorite emotion that I use to have. that moment where you actually feel the music, poem, art, beauty... This is the best it gets.

Anonymous37841 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 29, 2015 at 08:11 PM #59 I can't take these crashes anymore.

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	Oct 29, 2015 at 08:18 PM #60 i just want to forget all my problems and just...idk...do something big. im stopping my meds. thats the only way to forget about my problems. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII