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now know about my hallucinations...
and I do not want them to know.
not only do they know, but they are getting worse, and my parents, for some reason, think that they have some sort of magical gift to "help me".

there's no way for them to.
I'd rather deal wit it by myself, as I have been for a long while now.

I feel extremely negative toward their knowledge of me, but I can see a bright side... and that is only that if I'm acting strange they know why and maybe wont try and argue like we'd done in the past when I just wasn't "right". but I really just don't see anyway how they could possibly help during a situation, and I'd feel akward if they may ask or assume and try to talk to me about it.

I just wish I could take it back so that they don't know. It was actually much easier that way, as I thought it would be.

sorry, just venting.... I'm a little frustrated over this.

Are you see a therapist or a psychiatrist?

em

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both. my psychiastrist isn't really all that great... all he said about any of my hallucinations was that my music sucks. I dont even really listen to music unless I'm in the car or When I rarely feel like listening to it. But my parents, and my therapist, they don't believe me that I'm hallucinating. this is just really... I dunno. I feel violated.