Roll Call 75

You know... you can greatly reduce the cost by quitting too. Just saying...

I'm worried about my blood work. I know I have high cholesterol already but I'm concerned about my blood sugar. I know zyprexa affects both of those and I'm sure some of my other meds do too. I don't want to take more meds

I hope everything will be fine.

hahaha
im in college
people in college still have spring break chickenfoot. i just happened to be 25 and in college. prob will be in college til im 30.

i graduated high school at 17. been in college ever since then.

also teachers have spring break.
think of that

man im bored as hell

I wish Australian milkshakes would catch on here.....

So..um..I met with T today. I told him I haven't eaten in 3 days bc I am sick. He tried to take me to the bakery down the street but I said no I'm not hungry. He said sometimes u have to eat when ur not hungry and that eating isn't optional. I said I wish it was.. he said I know and I also know that it's not just you being sick. He asked me if I thought therapy was helpful if I haven't eaten because I wasn't saying much of anything I guess. I said what are u trying to say? He said I'm just asking a question..I said it seems like ur trying to punish me. He said no he was just asking. I said do u want me to leave and he laughed and said sarah...this is what happens when u don't eat...u can't think, you don't talk about anything, and you get really sensitive. I stared at the floor... we talked some about my beliefs about willpower and discipline. ..I said it takes willpower not to eat but he said it's easy for me to give in to that and the real willpower is breaking free of it and taking care of myself.

After I left I ate lunch with my roommate. I feel like I'm being difficult. I guess I need to try harder

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I uninstalled kik because I think it was being monitored by my asshole neighbors. I might reinstall it. Sorry for the inconvenience, to the few folks I used it with.

Went to church, it was really beautiful. First time attending mass. My anxiety almost got the best of me, I kept thinking the people there were staring and laughing at me or wondering why I was there, it felt awkward at first. It helped teach me though that the point of church is to focus on God and not my insecurities. I'm new to all of this and the standing up, sitting, repeat, etc and the prayers I'm not familiar with. But I'm glad my sister went with me so I wasn't alone

I don't know what to do about my eating. I'm still within a healthy bmi but that won't last if I can't curb this eating. I'm hungry all.the.time so hungry.

My account at pc, along with all my other info was hacked. The pos downstairs is taunting me. I can't get a link to the full website, so I can't see if/what he wrote.

My head feels full of fuzz and cotton

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Have to sleep in the living room at my dads.

No personal space, nowhere to be alone. Surrounded by people in and out of my head

I can't give hugs on tapatalk but I'm hugging everyone

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that sucks. im sorry

Oooooh my 10 year old is finding her pre-teen attitude. She just said "whatever mom" while rolling her eyes. She's going to be hell on wheels when she's older.

Oh no! Watch out! My 10year old gave me the silent treatment for breakfast. He's the one attached to my hip...still. Oh yeah, it's coming!

Leaving now with my date...so hope you all have a good night. I'm signing off for now...until tomorrow!

Have a great time!

Thanks!!! I will! 😁

Have fun!

So I'm thinking I'm not really schizoaffective. I think I just had a few nervous breakdowns. I don't know what causes the voices but they are around even with meds so what's the point. Same with the obsessive thoughts, delusions and everything else. Maybe I should try just taking the Effexor for the depression and get off of everything else. Maybe I don't need these meds every day. Things are good for me at home so I think the risk of another breakdown are minimal.

I am a happy drunk Mexican