Roll Call 75

I can't do half of them either but you do the best that you can and eventually you get better....

My T is just having her baby now so my appointment got cancelled and they haven't set up coverage yet. Just when I needed her....sigh...I mean I totally understand but still....

Thanks for the suggestion...

I don't think it's likely though. I don't think I have any significant highs or lows, plus that sounds like going between things more rapidly than I do. Oh and I was on an SSRI without issue for almost a year too.

I said on my other thread but my CPN however many years ago just said it was "all or nothing thinking" & that I might sit somewhere on the autistic spectrum (AS) but not enough to warrant a diagnosis.

I'm not as much fussed about the cause, as to learning how to control it a bit more. I suppose I have already a bit in many ways, but it can still be very frustrating never just sticking with an interest long-term.

Going to bring it up with my psychiatrist again when I next see him. Probably won't have much to say, but still...

I have to call my t's office. I scheduled a t appt at the same time as my pnp appt. Hopefully I can get in at a later time instead of having to schedule for another day. I'm anxious to see her.
I've already finished cleaning so the rest of the day is open. It's beautiful out today. I need to get in the shower and get dressed so I can take the dogs for walks. I'm not brave enough to take more than 1 at a time.

Oh no that stinks. Hope you get in to see someone soon.

Cancelled my pdoc appointment, $40 cancellation fee

I almost had a mental breakdown in college. But I managed to bottle it up. I'm seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow. I'm scared. Not of the psychiatrist. Of the things I'm seeing and hearing. I feel like I'm cracking up. Posters winking at me. Moving pictures on the wall. Hearing my great grandad's voice even though he passed away at Christmas a few years ago.

Wow. I couldn't book with t until the Friday after next. I'm surprised, she's usually pretty open.

Sorry you had to cancel.


I hope things improve soon.

I didn't think I really had highs and lows but apparently these minor changes count. Were you on the ssri alone or in combination with something like an AP that can stabilize mood? Not that I'm trying to peg you as bipolar but I know your psychosis is a little different and possibly not sz. IDK for me it helps me research it if I know the cause. Also lets me know if meds might help or other approaches....

Sorry if i was being a weirdo last night. I actually can't remember but I'm sure I posted some cray cray shite here. Still taking me ages to get the coordination back for typing, but it's coming back. I can also now hold down a sentence.

#dontdodrugskids

I'm sorry you're going through that, and I hope you'll feel better soon. I had the moving pictures on the wall too.

I need to bounce this off someone's head repeatedly before they give in with an answer.

I had to go to Dublin today to see my T. Not only am I hallucinating visually but no matter where I went people were watching me, laughing at me. Two guys on the tram were talking to each other about how fat and ugly I am. Then on the bus there was a crowd of polish talking about me pointing and laughing and speaking in their own language so I wouldn't understand.

I'm not sure if any of this was real.

I keep drowsing off, so tired. IDK if it's meds or what, but im so tired

went to group today and met with peer support specialist.

some stupid wench hit my car door with her door and parked really close to me in the parking lot. she was on the phone. *****

I was on Citalopram by itself for 5 months or so IIRC before I went back on APs.

I did have one instance of hypomania actually, but it was when I was using a high dose of my steroid inhaler. (I wasn't on any meds at that time) My psychiatrist wasn't really interested in it, or felt any explanation was needed. However, my symptoms then very much sounded like steroid psychosis.

Outwith that, I've had some depressive symptoms whilst more acutely psychotic, but nothing long lasting. Meds have certainly drained me but that's just meds.

I don't know. I'm sure it would have been caught by now in the 4 years I've been going to see psychiatrists if it was the case.

I don't know, I have this sort of desire to know my problems too but when you are prone to health anxiety sometimes it's best not to dwell on these things unless there are obvious answers.

Just because...

Lucy Rose - Shiver

the PSS was talking about starting a hearing voices group and she mentioned it in thos group and i was the only one that heard voices so i told a bit of my story.

Feeling quite depressed atm. Trying to fight it off but it's hard because I'm alone so much and I get bored and lonely. I live for when my bf comes home, it's so tragic. I need a life aka a job

IDK I've been going 4 years and they only just told me because I asked directly...but I'm probably projecting a bit here....still with you I know that you had other factors involved so that's probably all it was.

I can believe it. but you are not fat or ugly. I believe I hold the roll call ribbon for that lol.

I doubt it's real....

I'm sure it's not real. You said yourself that you're having visual hallucinations. take it easy.

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you shouldn't say such things

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