[findebsoon]

Hey anyone with an ear,
It seems that all I do is fight with myself. Do you
feel like that sometimes? Its always been uphill and against
the norm, I'm beginning to feel like an alnight diner and
it just doesn't want to let up. Where is the end? I'm dead
inside but I don't want to admit defeat. I can't see the
reason for all this struggle. Please say its OK.
DB </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Every night I just want
to get out, get out of my head. Paul McCartney

sorry you are having battles inside. I totally understand "uphill" and against the "norm".... I put on my avatar that "I'm swimming against the tide" coz that's how it seems most times......

But on the other hand... I've come to feel "special" in that I dont' ever get bored.... have so much going on just "inside" that boredom is not anything I have to live with. I've not been diagnosed with schizophrenia... but have been given several different labels to my "struggle"-- one of which I've not talked about-- schizotypal personality disorder...... in the UK it's (I've been told) classified as "mild schizophrenia"... but not here in the US-- it's a personality disorder..

anyway.... I hope you will keep trying.... there's people here that will listen....

mandy