I had a very unique experience the other night and I wanted to share it. The threat of the voices I feel have almost traumatized me. I've heard voices (internally and externally) in the past, but nothing consistent or super strong. Almost always they happen while I'm laying down to go to sleep -- when there is silence. I'll give you... as clear as it can be... what happened.

I first noticed it last night. I turned off the TV and laid down my head. I heard two voices, almost arguing -- not like a whisper but like a muffled sound -- like someone was outside of house. I looked up and i dont see anyone there.... I simply play it off as my neighbors in their part of our house/apartment fighting or talking loud. It happens again. This time, the moment I close my eyes and lay back down. I open my eyes and listen... nothing. close my eyes and I'm seeing images of things.... Things that don't make a lot of sense, like it's like my whole vision become (with eyes closed) like i'm looking into a reflection of a turned off iphone. or sometimes other images come to mind. I finally fell asleep.... I had another very violent dream, but this time, I have like this murderer psycho after me, but it's not a normal scenario or dream. I'm running backwards ( for what seems for hours) trying to escape and all I see in front of me is darkness, scissors, sometimes claws, faces of demons.... and these two voices talking the entire time. Telling me I'm going to die, I am the next victim, I'm this that or the other. ..... but it was like I wasn't really going anywhere... Like I was running on a ball with my orientation turned and unbalanced, with almost a curvature in the front of me..... at some point I realized, this was a dream and it was going on. I opened my eyes... I know it may sound like I must have still been asleep but I swear to you I was awake. Just like everytime I awoken from a nightmare. However the voices were still there. "You know what you have to do, you know you're crazy.." and MY OWN thought was "I'm supposed to kill myself.' (Thought, as in, I understood what they meant. Not that I was listening to them). Everytime I closed my eyes, (I was very afraid.... because I kept seeing images and voices even without closing my eyes. ) Expect when I closed my eyes the voices would explain the images. Someone was being attacked and I was seeing it. The markings on my bed were the sign, when cries are not heard from anyone, they go to this voice and bring them to other people. The voice was stronger at this point, and the images when I closed my eyes. The voices were violent and scary. I was afraid to close my eyes in fear of what I would see, but finally tiredness took over and I woke up this morning OK.

I remember the event very clearly, and this isn't the first weird experience I've had -- do you remember the spider/blob hallucination I had once? I'm really kind of afraid to sleep anymore. Nightmares are one thing... this is something all together terrifying.

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I am more than aware how nonsensical that sounds, and without any caution to why it had happened. I had a pretty good day to be honest. What are your thoughts? Was it just a brief moment of psychosis or do you think, considering I have family history of mood disorders and a brother (which may have been drug induced) with schizoaffective disorder, and some other risk factors for something like this... should I be a little concerned and see someone? I do have a therapist and he has suggested I do see a psychiatrist, and seems a bit concerned. This seemed too real to put into a dream-interpretation forum, and definitely with all the factors considered, I wanted all of your thoughts about this and maybe if you have had similar experiences, or if it matches anything you can relate to.

Thanks for reading!

[lilcreecher]

Talk to your therapist about this one. I have no history of schizophrenia so I cannot speak for that but I have had dreams that follow over when I "awaken". It is a queer feeling. But I do not believe that the dream playing out as you "woke up" is indicative of Psychosis as much as it is just a weird dream. But still talk to your therapist, They may be able to help with the strange dream.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Look up hypnogogic and hypnopompic hallucinations.....

Thanks for the info guys -- I'm sure both will be helpful. I'll also talk to my pdoc when I see him next week.