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Nov 01, 2016, 11:56 AM
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I have a video surveillance system running where I live. I review footage often and I am always surprised by my behavior on video. For example I just watched the clip of me going to the mailbox. I know my situational awareness is very high, and I am always hyper vigilant. What I often forget is what I look like while being that way.
To watch the video it looks like my mailbox is deep within enemy territory, and I'm a secret agent on a mission to retrieve assets. I look in all directions as I walk and stop occasionally to employ the thousand yard stare while analyzing a potential weakness in the visual perimeter, or determining if someone is in a parked vehicle that doesn't belong a block away. I wonder if normal people pick up on this and what they think of it? What must my neighbors think if they have peered through their curtains and seen my behavior. I have this active scanning while driving, often speeding up and slowing down, and making unplanned turns and doubling back to verify vehicles behind me. I do it in stores too, often circling back if I see suspicious people or setting walking traps where they will realize they are busted. Does anyone else do this and have you seen yourself doing it and been surprised by the extent? |
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Nov 01, 2016, 02:36 PM
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Hello mindwrench: For a while, I uploaded videos onto YouTube. (They're all gone now.)
 The first time I saw myself on YouTube I thought: "OMG, I look like a cantankerous old farmer!"  I don't drive anymore. It's not safe.  We have a dog I walk throughout our neighborhood every day. I hate having people walking behind me!  So I always do whatever it takes to remedy the situation.
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Nov 03, 2016, 10:19 AM
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Hi MindWrench, I saw an old videotape of me from when I was in my 20s. I was surprised to see how fidgety I am. I could not bear to see myself anymore - I have aged horribly and it would make me feel su.
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Nov 04, 2016, 12:56 AM
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I have seen myself several times on video, and I definitely understand where you are coming from. For me it is weird to see myself reacting to things in third person; considering all my mermories are obviously in first person. It's like looking at yourself from someone else's point of view; it's weird.
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There are many types of monsters that scare me: Monsters who cause trouble without showing themselves, monsters who abduct children, monsters who devour dreams, monsters who suck blood... and then, monsters who tell nothing but lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance: They are much more cunning than others. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart; they eat even though they've never experienced hunger; they study even though they have no interest in academics; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. If I were to encounter such monsters, I would likely be eaten by them... because in truth, I am that monster.
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