Roll Call 86

Congrats! Under what diagnosis? How long did it take?

Anyone have issues with having boundaries with other people?

Im alone all day and when i am around people i love i go crazy. I think its becUse im alone all day and i crave talking to people.

Im sincerely sick of texting and all this. I would rather be in the presence of someone. Im sick of that. I enjoy my alone time too a lot! But i cant be left to my own devices all day. I just cant. Its driving me insane. Completely!!!

9 years now. NINE!

I am sorry Newtus, I have been isolated for 5 years only it drives me crazy already

Im about to go crazy. Im serious.

I have severe anxiety and paranoia

I could never do that to people. I get that it's supposed to be in their best interests or whatever, but it's awful having it done to you. The staff have said I'd make a good MH nurse, but I have no interest in working inpatient, restraining people. I've had it done to me 5 or 6 times since I've been inpatient this time and it's traumatising. Especially at night time they call staff from other wards to help and you've got your arse hanging out for random strangers to see. And the last 2x they kept holding me down even after injecting me and I couldn't breathe. It was awful, though not as awful as forced ECT during my first admission. That still gives me nightmares and I burst into tears any time ECT is mentioned or shown on TV.

I'm just making conversation Justme, not trying to have a go at your new job, so I hope you don't feel like I am directing this just at you. I couldn't be a psychiatrist anymore either and section people or force them to take meds, having been on the other side of it, regardless of how it may supposedly help some people.

Just me - I'm sorry that the training was hard. I would've found it very triggering too

Oh and btw, hi everyone

*Willow*

Hi willow. Havent seen you in awhile. Hope your well.

Thanks Newtus. hope you are well too. I'm ok, though still in hospital. It's been over 10 months now. Am desperate to go home!

*Willow*

Wow! People in Usa dont tend to stay that long unless they are in state hospital. They arent even allowed to have their phones. Hats off to you for having to go through all that. I wish you well willow!

Im in the middle of my mental illness getting worse and

Schizoaffetive mainly. Took about two months

Hi willow. I can't imagine 10 months in the hospital. I hope you get home soon.

I feel sick. I ate so much junk food blah.
What's everyone up to? I'm just relaxing with my dogs and my son.

I'm drunk lol 😊

Hi willow sorry you're still in the hospital

I am chatting in the coffeehouse with the other peeps and trying not to fall asleep.

Attempt 2 at not taking my meds tonight. Prob wont last til morning

That's quite poetic - better than e.e. cummings poem about eating an apple that was in the refrigerator, IMO, lol! Much better!

Good night/morning to all the early risers and late sleepers.

Just hang in there, Newtus. You sound like you're trying to have a crisis. That isn't a good idea.

The weather app tells me it's a snow storm, too bad it's too bright in here to see it but I can't get to my lamps.
ETA this means the janitor will be out there with his shovel in the dead of night again. It doesn't look suspicious when there's actual snow out.

I don't think I could do it either. Thankfully I work in the community so I should never have to use it. I don't even know why I needed to go on the training, it's not like I'm guna restrain someone in their own home.
Sorry you're still in hospital willow and how they've treat you. Have they said why they're keeping you there still?

Morning all. Hope you're okay.
Had a nice night with my friend after the training. Got dominos and got drunk on rum and coke.
I took my meds a couple of hours after. Usually I don't but last time I didn't I felt absolutely awful the day after and hardly slept. My cpn said it should be okay to take. I took them and slept really well. I feel a bit meh but not sure why.
Going to a cafe today which is so cute and does amazing food. Hopefully that will cheer me up

Good morning. Hope everyone is doing well and no one is hung over lol.