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Sometimes psychotic · Mar 18, 2017, 04:10 PM

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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Sometimes, I died over a year ago so I can't die again. I know that is hard for everyone to understand though I don't know why. On TV, she drained all her blood and it opened the fire and the other person went through it like a portal... I'm in Hell so it seems to be telling me that draining my life force will allow me to leave Hell, which is what I really want more than anything. But the Moon said there were no more 'windows' so I need to figure out when is the right time spiritually to try to cross over again. But don't worry, it won't hurt me. I feel very certain of that. The Moon will protect me.

*Willow*

I'm not sure why you think you died but you are very much alive.....I will not argue with you in that psychosis can be a living hell.

Mar 18, 2017, 04:10 PM

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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Sometimes, I died over a year ago so I can't die again. I know that is hard for everyone to understand though I don't know why. On TV, she drained all her blood and it opened the fire and the other person went through it like a portal... I'm in Hell so it seems to be telling me that draining my life force will allow me to leave Hell, which is what I really want more than anything. But the Moon said there were no more 'windows' so I need to figure out when is the right time spiritually to try to cross over again. But don't worry, it won't hurt me. I feel very certain of that. The Moon will protect me.

*Willow*

You are not dead already it's the psychosis talking. Please talk to your psychiatrist or your parents about it. I hope you get the help you need.

Mar 18, 2017, 04:13 PM

I don't know why people keep saying that when it's not true. I wish I could explain it all better so you could all understand.

*Willow*

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 18, 2017, 04:17 PM

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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

I don't know why people keep saying that when it's not true. I wish I could explain it all better so you could all understand.

*Willow*

We are all alive....in order to talk with us you have to be alive too.....

Mar 18, 2017, 07:23 PM

Willow, do you not feel pain, do you not see the screen before you? These are symptoms of life. You're alive!

newtus · Mar 18, 2017, 07:29 PM

I had an ok day. Went for a drive. But thats also using up my gas.

Been hearing voices telling me to do stuff the past couple of days. The outdoors dont seem real. The grass is fake. Its all the matrix. A game

greentires4me · Mar 18, 2017, 08:24 PM

Feeling like my ankles are on fire and I keep passing out it's disturbing also

My voices are saying "shut up shut up shut up!" over again to people/residents in my building except staff they are all very annoying and it's like same BS coming out of their mouths honestly I just wanna scream it at all of them but I think that would be a bad idea?!?!

I know I came out of psychosis on Wednesday but my whole head hurts and I am talking softly to things in a way not to disturb others and draw attention to myself but maybe I never really left psychosis??? I have major paranoia and huge delusions

cogladaid · Mar 18, 2017, 11:10 PM

I want to paint my nails and be pretty but I don't want them to read my thoughts.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 09:20 AM

Morning.

Prob gonna do nothing today.

I didnt even get my two replies from the therapist on the app yesterday

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 09:37 AM

Hope everyone has a good day

ofthevalley · Mar 19, 2017, 10:16 AM

Good morning everyone. Just hanging out with the kids today. It's cold out so we probably won't do much. I wish there was something to do. I'm tired of being bored.
What's everyone else got planned for the day? Hope you all have a good day.

ofthevalley · Mar 19, 2017, 10:17 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Morning.

Prob gonna do nothing today.

I didnt even get my two replies from the therapist on the app yesterday

That's not cool. Isn't that part of your contract? I would definitely cancel when the month is up.

ofthevalley · Mar 19, 2017, 10:19 AM

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Originally Posted by greentires4me

Feeling like my ankles are on fire and I keep passing out it's disturbing also

My voices are saying "shut up shut up shut up!" over again to people/residents in my building except staff they are all very annoying and it's like same BS coming out of their mouths honestly I just wanna scream it at all of them but I think that would be a bad idea?!?!

I know I came out of psychosis on Wednesday but my whole head hurts and I am talking softly to things in a way not to disturb others and draw attention to myself but maybe I never really left psychosis??? I have major paranoia and huge delusions

If you are still having delusions you are probably still inn psychosis.
Don't listen to the voices. They just try to fool us.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 10:37 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

That's not cool. Isn't that part of your contract? I would definitely cancel when the month is up.

Yes it is. Im not happy. Definitely canceling. Wish i could get my money back. Not worth it.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 10:39 AM

Thinking about getting my car washed today. Im like obsessed with that for some reason. Absolutely love my mustang to death even though its a 4 cylinder ecoboost.

I was reading my dads texts to his friend and he was telling them how he was lonely and felt like he had no one to talk to. So sad that an elderly person feels that way.

ofthevalley · Mar 19, 2017, 10:44 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Thinking about getting my car washed today. Im like obsessed with that for some reason. Absolutely love my mustang to death even though its a 4 cylinder ecoboost.

I was reading my dads texts to his friend and he was telling them how he was lonely and felt like he had no one to talk to. So sad that an elderly person feels that way.

I'm sorry your dad is lonely. That is so sad.

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junkDNA · Mar 19, 2017, 12:24 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Thinking about getting my car washed today. Im like obsessed with that for some reason. Absolutely love my mustang to death even though its a 4 cylinder ecoboost.

I was reading my dads texts to his friend and he was telling them how he was lonely and felt like he had no one to talk to. So sad that an elderly person feels that way.

i think a lot of older, single people are lonely

i know my mom is lonely. it is extremely upsetting to me to think about

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 12:25 PM

I guess i thought by being here with my dad would suffice him from being lonely all the time. Guess not.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 12:27 PM

Its amazing how people tell me to get a life. I want to spend time with as many people as possible (that i know). And everyone is always busy. Yea sure people have lives. Outside of me. Because these same people are spending time with THEIR loved ones. Doesnt matter if its family or friends. But if im not a friend to them then they wont spend time with me.

Get it? Its two timing.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 12:29 PM

Might as well drink a beer and lay in bed

greentires4me · Mar 19, 2017, 12:39 PM

I'm in hospital

justmeandmyhead · Mar 19, 2017, 01:20 PM

I'm scared they are going to suggest clozapine when I see someone next.

justmeandmyhead · Mar 19, 2017, 01:45 PM

I've been on all the aytipicals now as well as depixol.

newtus · Mar 19, 2017, 02:06 PM

Stupid therapist on therapy app said she doesnt work on the weekeends.

Its a ****ing therapy app???
You work from home.

So effin dumb.

Im paying 156 dollars and not able to talk on the weekends.

#done

12AM · Mar 19, 2017, 02:44 PM

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