[hobo2000]

I'm working and it's really hard for me because I have Psychotic Disorder NOS.

I believe the government is experimenting on me with poisoning to make me a bad person like they experimented on their soldiers and the public.

They hurt me, they make it hard to think and focus and relax, my body aches and it's getting harder and harder to bathe and brush my teeth some days almost most days it's hard to do anything.

I wander around a lot aimlessly after work, I can't focus at work, and can't read or study anymore...

My emotions are so strong and hard to manage I feel suicidal most days but I don't want to hurt myself anymore than I already hurt...

I'm afraid this stuff is going to make me lose my job.

I'm on drugs to help me with this but they're not working and I don't want to take any more drugs because they're making me fat...

Someone please tell me I'm not alone here

[ofthevalley]

You aren't alone!
Maybe the meds just aren't doing it for you. A tweak may be in order. Do you have a therapist you could talk to?

You're not alone Lots of people here experience similar things, so post away if it's helpful.

I can understand not wanting to take more meds when they're not helpful and have bad side effects. I prefer to manage med-free, but it requires a lot of coping skills. How do you feel yours are at the moment? If you feel they could do with a bit of work, a therapist could help, or you could post here and we could offer some suggestions of what helps us?

All the best,

*Willow*

[bukowski06]

Hello
Do you feel that your diagnosis may be accurate? Do you think there may be more underlying reasons for how you are feeling? I would agree with the other posters that talking with your doctor is the best route to take to help you get some support

[junkDNA]

[hobo2000]

Originally Posted by bukowski06

Hello
Do you feel that your diagnosis may be accurate? Do you think there may be more underlying reasons for how you are feeling? I would agree with the other posters that talking with your doctor is the best route to take to help you get some support

I really try hard in therapy I really do, but something prevents me from being totally outright and honest in therapy and it's a painful experience. I've been diagnosed with SZ but my doctor recently redacted the diagnosis right before my SSI interview because she doesn't think I'm that sick.