[OliverB]

Leading with the so called psychosis or leading with AP side effects.

Ther are not psychosis, a pathology, ther are parte of my life, creativity, feelings, spiritual way. Sonetimes it is geat, mostly it is painfull but if i reach to the point i bear it and keep walking my path, i end up growing from the "psychosis".

What does it mean to you? Is it just an illness or it bring you something or teach you something?

I feel i will be locked up for saying this and psychiatrist are stalking me to find out who i am and lock me up, this makes me be more careful and think more what i do.

[ofthevalley]

Psychosis brings me nothing. It surrounds me with profound fear and misery. It isn't something I would wish on my worst enemy.
The aftermath of my psychosis is something it took years to recover from. For me and my family. My children were traumatized.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Psychosis brings me nothing. It surrounds me with profound fear and misery. It isn't something I would wish on my worst enemy.
The aftermath of my psychosis is something it took years to recover from. For me and my family. My children were traumatized.

I am sorry it was so destructive for you and your loved ones.

I have been in a great pain and fear from it, but I am alone and end up finding a good company even if it was and still is, sonetimes, scaring. I have íntegrated them as part of my life since i dont have anything else.

It is not wonderful, and if you already have buildt yor life it will change it. It is a doble edge sword, it can end with all you have, or it can change it and you reborn like a fenix.

I guess it depends on what you have, what your enviroment does, how you process the psychosis and if there is a meanig for you or not.

I know for me it would be easier to be normal, but this has made me a unic person because i had space to becaume a buterfly and nobody interrupted me wheb i had to try to self extract blood, it had to happend for me to grow. But if i had had children it would have been horrible for me andthem.

I still have to control this, but sincr I have no way to figth against it, i am along it and try to find something usefull after all the fear and pain.

That is it
I cant figth against
So now thet are my allies.
And i try to find something meaning full
So the pain had a meanig

[Teddy Bear]

How do you grow from psychosis?

[OliverB]

If you cant defeat them, join them.

[OliverB]

I am crazy, never mind.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Teddy Bear

How do you grow from psychosis?

Speritualyi I learnt more about myself, they brougth me new ways to see the World. The chaos and the wonder, and everything in the middle.

I learnt i am never alone, i learnt i am surrounded by life and my own thoughts can make me company.

After rhe fear and confusion, this is what i got

i dont know what psychosis brings to my life
sometimes i dont even feel like i really have psychosis i just dont know if its real or if its psychosis but it seems more real than psychosis

the only thing it brings to my life is clarity
i feel like i am thinking more clearly when i dont take meds

I don't agree that I have a MI, but my struggles over the past 10 years have taught me a lot about myself, how strong I am for example, and given me greater empathy. Eg I could really empathise with my grandfather's struggles from dementia and that helped me better support him in his final years. So I'm grateful for that.

But that's not to say that it hasn't been really difficult at times and, if given a magic wand to take these struggles away from now on, I probably would go for that. But I wouldn't wish to have never struggled because I have learnt a lot and grown as a person because of it. Might not be a popular opinion, but it's my truth.

*Willow*

[bukowski06]

I think that having self-acceptance about psychosis is understandable if that is something that you feel is a part of who you are. When someone is experiencing psychosis it does seem to have a severe effect on your emotions or what may be referred to as spirituality. Unfortunately it can also have an effect on negative emotions as well. That is why people seek outside help to get assistance with managing these symptoms.