[Postal_Service]

My hallucinations have gotten a little better/worse. They're becoming a lot more irregular, and my anxiety portion is starting to get worse. Ever since my tonsillectomy surgery, something has been feeling a little off. I'm worried that everyone is out to get me. It probably has no correlation to do with the surgery, but I can't help but hypothesize it. I can't walk around my own school without worrying someone is going to stab me in the back with a literal knife. On the bright side, my friends have became a little more understanding with my problems. They cope with me, even if they think my conspiracies are ridiculous. So I'm just going to give a short thanks to them. I love you guys <3. And onto the hallucinations, I have been hearing things lately. If you can hear stuff too, please tell me, because talking about it would be nice. It used to be all visual pictures that I would see. A girl in the corner of my house, a moving bottle, bugs, etc., etc. But now, it's noises. Sometimes I hear gunshots, but there's no gun anywhere and no one else can hear it. The other day I heard someone scream angrily outside my house, but my father claimed he was outside and said there was nobody out there. Does this mean anything? Does anyone have any thoughts or ideas on why my mind is doing this? I'm a very scientific-type person and I can't help myself in trying to find a reason for everything. I have paranoid schizophrenia, DID, am 17, take Quetiapine, and live with my family. Any ideas?

[ofthevalley]

You are paranoid and are hearing voices? You should talk to your Pdoc. It could be the beginning of psychosis.

[12AM]

Usually, when you are already on meds and your symptoms get worse it means time to get your meds adjusted, either a higher dose or maybe you need to change the meds completely. I'd talk about this with the psychiatrist.

Do you have a therapist you can talk to to develop some coping skills for the hallucinations and other symptoms you have? I find coping skills help me way more than meds do.

IME sometimes the voices say things that are psychologically meaningful, and sometimes they're random. For example, I used to hear a man and a woman say horrible things about me, criticising me all the time. They used to say things that I already believed about myself, things that I had been told by my emotionally abusive grandmother and bullies at school. So those were meaningful.

But I've also had random ones like a voice that shouted "cinnamon" really loudly and completely randomly one day. I've also 'heard' my house breathing, and my dog talking about "pink paperwork" that he apparently needed to do etc. So those I don't consider meaningful at all.

Coping skills helped me the most with the voices, but thankfully I don't hear voices anymore.

I hope that you find something to help

*Willow*

[Postal_Service]

Thanks for the input. And yes, I will talk to my therapist about this too. I'll ask about getting my meds adjusted. <3