Roll Call 95~

Holy crap!!!!!!!

I just took my weight!

Im back in the 160s!!!!

169.2!

Been to the gym today, it was hard as I haven't been in weeks. I was trying to be body positive and not care but I just can't do it. I feel crap about myself and feel like I look awful. I was happier when I was going to the gym for sure. So I'm eating healthier and going to the gym. It feels good.
I somehow need to get a happy medium and allow myself some nice things but still try to be healthy. I'm so all or nothing...something my psychologist has said many times lol.

I slept without ambien last night. I forgot to refill my script. I took a couple Ativan and went to sleep!

Good job!

What are you doing today Newtus?

Idk yet. I thought about a few things but its been raining here. Hard. So the roads are wet and everything and its severely muggy out. So idk if i want to go anywhere. Plus im cramping.

But then again, i need to do something.

I slept on and off yesterday.

Lol. Its obvious i have no idea what im doing today.

Hope you get to do something fun.

Thank you. Ill try.

I don't feel as energetic today. Kind of tired actually. I don't like it.

could you be crashing?

You are so cute newtus

My bed has felt so comfortable this past week.

Aw thanks!!!

Yall, i am so excited about my weight loss its like not even funny right now.

Probably.

Man, my body is really cramping right now. Took some ibuprofen.

@valley

You have snapchat?

Looks like its gonna be an inside day today

Good afternoon/evening everyone, how is everyone?

I'm doing okay, slept a ridiculous amount of time...like 13-14 hours. My wife and partner are saying I'm being delusional that I believe I am being forced to take my meds, I don't believe them because I know I am. :/

I looked up my electronic health record from my doctors visit. I guess i shouldn't have done that, because now I'm pissed.

What's wrong?

I wish I could do that

Did u shower? Lol. Saw your snap

Yes haha. But then i got my period. So everything is messed up again.

Yesterday was a very rough day here. I hope it's not going to continue. I've split myself off from everyone and am schizotypal personality disorder in the revolting flesh. I'm desperate to leave here.