Roll Call 95~

I'm waiting for an email so I have time to goof off. Work has been slow this afternoon so I've gotten to fool around with my daughter. She's so funny.
My son had freshman academy and then he went to a girl's house. Woah! I have to pick him up in 45 minutes. Then I am done for the day.
I went out for vape juice this morning and all they had was this crappy stuff. It's 24 Mgs so it's killing me. Can't wait until my husband gets home with the good stuff.

Thanks! Yeah, it's taking a lot of effort to make myself go and write in a journal daily, but it's revealing some patterns. I had a hard time falling asleep last night cause the voices just would not shut up... I didn't think it could be schizophrenia though o.o

There is no way I could do 24 mg juice. When I vaped I did 3 mg, and occasionally 6 but that was near too much for me.

I started on 12mg but went to 6mg when I tried sub-ohm vaping. Been there ever since...

Well, just hang in there. Try to keep insight into the coincidences. What's going on with your family? You don't have to say if you'd rather not.

I haven't sub ohm'ed yet. I have COPD so I doubt if I even can. I went down to 12 pretty quickly when I started vaping. But I began getting urges to smoke so I went. Back up to 18, and even 24.

I work in the medical records department.

Well my sister is pregnant and she has cancer and my mum has excess fluid on the brain.

Oh that's terrible. I hope they'll both be better soon. That must be putting a lot of stress among you.

That is so much to deal with... I'm sorry

Thank You, I just feel useless because they've both supported me through my problems and I can't do anything to help them. I don't know what to do.

Last night at Spiders Corner there was a knock down drag out fight between someone I like and the annoying smoking monitor. I didn't catch what started it. But the woman in the wheel chair screamed "I'm not the schizo in the room!!!!!". I'm planning to give her a vape pen. I just don't know what it was about.

Could you maybe cook a family supper and clean up, or clean up with your brother? I think they'd really appreciate that. And if it goes well, try doing that twice or more per week. Unfortunately I have no ideas but let them both know you are there to talk or listen.

It's vicious. I usually vape 6 Mgs. I think. Either 3 or 6 but I think 6.

I'm sorry to hear that that must be a lot of stress on you. No wonder you are feeling off.

Just got back from the nature museum with my dad, sis, and nephew.

Im tired. I had a good time!

Excited. I located a 2006 Mazda 6 for my wife and I to look at. Hopefully going tomorrow with her father to check it out. We need a new car so badly.

It was nice to run away from my problems for awhile today. Of course they were all waiting for me when i got back home

Looking at myself in pictures today, i look extremely overweight. Its horrible.

I look so overweight...

Im not putting those pics on facebook. Its disgusting.

This is me with my dad and nephew on the nature trail.

Obviously i feel this is a safe place to share it. But i look really overweight and im not happy with the way i look at all.

That's a wonderfully restful area, looks like.

Thank you

I dont think im ever gonna lose enough weight. It took me about 6 months to lose 12 pounds.

I need to lose at least 30-40 pounds...

Sigh

Your nephew is adorable. Looks like my friends baby. xD..

You look just fine. Pictures have a way of seeing ourselves in a unflattering light. Don't dwell on it too much because if you want to you can always lose weight.