Roll Call 98

I hate to say this but i think im gonna start drinking one coca cola a day because im so tired all the time. It kinda helps cuz the caffeine. But i know it can put weight on. Thats why i hate it.

Yup, it sucks indeed! I literally have gone without sex for months now and have zero drive for it. I don't like being ruled by libido, but I also don't like being without one either. Too many psychiatric meds have this as a side effect...

add in: I'm only 28 as well. Wayyy too young for this ****. lol.

My sex life is pretty good. Not even the haldol can stop me. I dont have sex with random people. I just have a healthy sex life.

"Some books are better than memories." - Arcade Fire

What's the cause of the depression you think, my friend?

You're making me blush.

Correct, can't be hypomania, must be mania. I had that discussion with my pdoc last time. And by the way, I was a little sexually riskay. I would get a hard on during the most embarrassing times! Thank god for front pockets HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Jesus Christ. I was relieved to find out I wasn't just some creeper. There was a biological reason for it.

Yup. I have no desire. I've never been ruled by libido but I'd sure like to have one.

Enjoy it! You never know when it could stop.

I've never really Been interested in sex

I've never had a strong sex drive but at least when I had it I would umm enjoy it. Now it's just going through the motions.

You go girl!

Cog was right, you're one of the girls DT. Welcome to the dark side, we have cookies.

I would get this feeling and it would drag me through the mud until my mind would come up with some delusional thing that was wrong that was disconnected with reality. It starts with feelings, then ideas, then crazy me would start asking normal people questions and going to the cop station or affirmative action! I hope you're not feeling paranoid/persecuted feelings.

Yeah...I started getting really paranoid earlier this evening. It doesn't make any sense but I still believe something bad would happen. I'm scared I can predict deaths.

I am the same way

Just took my meds.

Gonna read some of my book for awhile while i have the energy

I can tell when something is wrong with my sister. I get all queasy and nervous. Just recently I had that feeling and called the local hospitals and found out she had been transferred there from jail. She was already transferred back by the time I called.

I have a pretty much constant delusion that I am special and maybe even supernatural. Immortality and being invincible is part of it

That sounds like it could be dangerous.

Omg. I know I've had moments I've posted nude pics anonymously and cybered with anonymous men and planned on becoming cam girl but... I don't remember where I was going with that. I'm a little drunk.

Anyway! So like... could my psychosis plus crazy hyperactivity be described as mania or just schizoaffective with bipolar traits? If hypomania by nature doesn't have psychosis as a trait. I'm so confused now.

Idk if it's dangerous but I do see how it might be irrational. However at my core it's just what I default to believing

the voices were telling me earlier that i was killing people with my thoughts and that i was causing children to disappear from the hospital

i even took my meds today and i was scared all day because i dont want to kill anymore people with my thoughts and i dont want the police to find out that i am killing people

We can't kill people with our thoughts so no worries.

I have this persistent partial belief that if I don't monitor my thoughts or let unwanted thoughts in that I could kill people with these thoughts. It's a terrifying thing. I almost turned myself into the police last month over it...