Roll Call 98

Not you. The person who was judgemental towards you.

I got a buddy who was on vacation in Miami and he was supposed to leave today but obvs his flight was cancelled and now he's scrambling to find a shelter to ride out the storm in. I'm kind of worried about him.

I want to make Roll Call 99 but the first and the last time I made it one of our regular members left.. What if I'm cursed like SP (hugs SP).

Break the curse!

Last night, they never brought my night meds and I kept waking all night long. They don't give me anything for sleep, so it wasn't due to a sleep med. And then they only just now brought my morning meds. I'm so glad though so now I don't have to go to the desk whining about my meds. There was no one there. And the physical therapist told me to try back at 3pm to use the bike machine. And the weather man went to great effort to turn his back to me in the dining room. This has been a very depressing morning. I like the weather man, he's one of my favorite people here. And my other favorite, the handsome guy left right after he finished his coffee. I'm social poison today.

It's ok. I've given myself permission to not make friends. No awkward greetings, no caring what they think of me. Just me, enigmatically quiet. The handsome guy never talks. Never ever. But he did tell me his name when I asked like back in May or June. I feel happier when he and the weather man are around.

Door2015, one of our members, lives in fl. Shes riding it out in her house. Very worried about her.

I feel exhausted

I smell like beef

Morning. It's crazy quiet in here. What's everyone up to?
I woke up without much pain in my face. No bruising either. I really lucked out. The only issue is my back I think something slipped. Ouch.
I'm going grocery shopping today to day instead of Sunday. I have a family thing on Sunday . I love hanging out with my grandma. She's 93
Well I hope everyone has a good day.

Oh no, I hope she change her mind

I went out today to get my grandma a new fan. She was so happy. She's 80

Did you tell her there are animal friendly shelters? Seriously she should evacuate.

Yea. Shes still not going to. She said her husband wanted to stay. The storm is already hitting

Question for you guys:

I need to know.

Am i putting too much pressure on myself to read too much?

I want to get a good job so I can eventually travel the world.

I don't think so. At least you are reading. I'm just sleeping.

That's terrible. I hope they'll be ok.

I feel really good this morning. Not like 'reorganize my house at 3am good' but really good. I slept like a log. I self harmed because it seemed like a fun idea but I feel awake and alive this morning I'm going to drink some coffee and see if I can get anything done today.

Let's be honest I'll probably just spam you guys all day and get nothing actually productive done but I'm in a good mood!

Sorry. I agree she should evacuate. She could leave food and water for the cats. If something catastrophic happens there is nothing she could do for them anyway. I don't mean that in a bad way. I'm just being realistic. Florida is already getting tropical force winds and the storm is barely hitting. I'm worried for her.

Does anyone have any advice for me, at all? Im really wondering...

You should read because you want to read not because you feel that you have to meet a deadline. If you're trying to fill a quota of I have to read ___ many books in a year you're probably going to fail. Try to set something like 'read a chapter a day' or some **** like that but don't beat yourself up if you don't meet it deadlines suck when it's something you do for fun you're going to kill all the joy I know I've killed the joy in hobbies before by setting quotas and using hobbies for income it sucks you're gonna kill your passion for reading if you set yourself up like that.

Thank you for responding. I appreciate it.

I think part of the reason im not reading a lot (which is also the reason i havent been reading at all the past year) is because my meds make me lethargic and tired all the time. I have extremely low energy. Not enough to do a damn thing but lay in bed. Even if im not depressed. But have been quite depressed off and on since january. Its been a bit better this month tho. (August-now)

I would suggest just like setting yourself a goal but don't beat yourself up over it. It's just not worth it. If you don't feel like reading don't pressure yourself.

I ate a bunch of food but I'm still SO HUNGRY.