Roll Call 110

lol maybe you should give them some water?

Lolll so petttyyyy

I think it’s where you live...everything is far apart.....even though I’m from chitown the bf lives an hour out, the population is huge here but to find “a good one” you have to sift through a lot of guys.

It's quite alright. I like to share what I got for Christmas... it show's that I am appreciative of what I got and that's all that matters.

His tongue!!!!!!

Awwww but he doesnt like doing it. But I continue to give him what he likes ☹️

haha, bad joke I know.

I thought it was funny!!

Pretty much always. We did get more expensive gifts every few Christmases but nothing extravagant. Certainly never got lump sums of money.

The bf said if we live together, after awhile he would just start calling me his wife....

Um...

Isnt that basically common law marriage. Actually yes it is, but only in a few states, one of them texas.

But um...what do you guys think about that?.....

My dad is going to give me his 1000 US dollar leather jacket. He's crazy. He gives me all these things that used to be his..

It's probably a really nice jacket.. I will put it in my will to be sent to junkDNA before my tragic stimulant death.. Then she doesn't need to buy a new one

Idk why I think about death a lot but I do.. I obsess about dying.. Either wanting to die or fear of dying.. It makes no sense.. Other people dying too..

But I'm not as sui anymore which is good I guess.

I miss my friend with schizophrenia from the psych ward that I met at my first admission. Last time I saw him, he wasn't doing so well. Didn't shave or anything. He talked about his dad dying and didn't know that his dad owned a Harley bike.

My dad said he would let me drive his Harley I just need a drivers license.

I don't think that's bad at all.

Hi

Woke up after two hours of sleep again. Not sure whether I can go back to sleep. I guess Finding Reason is in a deep long sleep at the moment, haven’t seen her online since she said she was about to go to sleep. Long flight surely does tiring.

I use to live with my ex's parents. It wasn't that bad. I moved out because I was too scared to look for a job and it was before I was on disability.

The fiancé got more than 500 bucks for Christmas this year but that was because he was about to fly here. He had money from working but his family wanted to make sure his journey was safe. He spoilt me rotten when he is here because things here are way cheaper than in States. He kept saying stuff here are very cheap, move here now then fiancé lol. I don’t think he usually gets that much. Oh and things are cheap here except for my meds #hahabummer

That seems like a cop out unless you can’t afford a wedding....but that’s just my opinion.....also aren’t you worried about losing disability?

I'm living vicariously through you this Christmas.

Yes very worried. I dont think id have to worry so much about moving. More, marriage (if it ever comes to that with us).

You think its a cop out??????????? Now im starting to wonder………

We couldnt afford a wedding yes. He couldnt. I told him if we ever get married my parents could pay. But even then, if they couldnt, why not just goto a courthouse???????

Im realllllly wondering now if its a cop out

If he's going to call you his wife, might as well get the paperwork lol!

Thats what i thought too

???

Idk

Maybe he was just saying that to be snuggly to you, like he was thinking you’ll be his wife one day. But he actually really wants to marry you. Just my thoughts

Ugh im so confused i wish i knew what he was thinking

Im scared to ask tho

Well I think it would always be in question....I mean could you just walk away or would you need a divorce if something happens. Would your friends and family respect the relationship as marriage?

As far as the paying I’m sure your parents would chip in but you could have it in the yard if needed as a potluck if needed you know there are lots of ways. My parents eloped and still got married in a church. You could have paid for their wedding with your stocking for sure.

Idk maybe he was trying to be romantic or provide a solution to the disability thing?

I agree, think this is most likely.......

Don’t worry he totally loves you and it will all come out eventually.....

I actually never told him that if we got married id lose my disability. Kinda scared to.

But...idk, maybe he was just trying to be romantic? Because later on, like a week or two later he talked about putting a ring on my finger. Like he said it and i was like “are you kidding? Joking?” And he said with a serious look “i never said i was joking...”.