Roll Call 110

Marinading some chicken in orange sauce

My new fave

Morning

Raining here all day

Good morning! Have had a good day so far, got up early and went to the gym to work out. Grabbed something I needed at the store. Now hanging out at the library for awhile online and getting some more books and stuff. I see my case manager today and find out about the furniture I'm supposed to get! Hoping for some good news!

I've been on a really good sleep schedule and have been taking my meds every single day morning and night

Its raining here. Its supposed to rain all day.

Today feels like a ukulele playing day

I don't know what it is but I keep forgetting to take my change from the Coke machine. Which reminds me that I need more singles for the Christmas weekend.

I hope everyone feels well. I want a candy cane.

I would give you some if I could, I have a box of them. I like having one with hot chocolate or with peppermint tea, especially when it's cold outside

Oh that sounds so good! I never tried that before. I'd love to get the little ones and stir my hot drinks with them. Maybe my friend will get me some.

morning! back from a weekend with the bf for his birthday, we threw a small gaming party at his place sunday and went thrifting + to see star wars yesterday. holy crap tlj was incredible. last minute christmas shopping and baking tonight. my bosses gave me a $200 bonus and i might have cried a little.

Just got my labret piercing

Oh yeah!

I woke up after 2 hours of sleep again. Can’t wait to see my doc. What’s everyone up to?

working, bleh, counting the hours until Friday, then I have a week off

Feeling real down

Why?.......

It started last night when the bf and i got into an argument over the moving in thing. He said he felt like i was pushing him, even tho he told me he doesnt have the finances right now. I wasnt tho. I just wanted to know the timeframe of moving out and i explained to him im real OCD with my time management. I make calendars of all my events and micro-manage my time. So i feel lost and ultimately wont do anything if i dont have at least a general plan and rough timeframe for something. So i started just feeling second thoughts towards moving in, because we are already having issues.

Anyway

Today he got called off of work cuz its raining. I wanted him to come over. At first i was like “come over, we can make out”. Which wasnt a lie but it wasnt gonna like all that we’d do. He said no basically. Then i was just like “come over, i can help you with your finances”. He said “no i dont want to get out much in this rain”.

Anyway...here i am. Sitting here. It feels like it should be night already. Ive been up since 3. My dads home but hes asleep cuz he cant be outside. So im lonely. Honestly i just want to be with the bf. Thats all.

Weve been arguing a lot lately. Its come to where im scared to tell him anything.

Idk...

It may just be a phase in the relationship? The bf and I have been though sort of rough patches before and talking through it after things have cooled down seems to work.

Its possible he won't be able to accommodate your OCD tendencies. I had one bf who was not a planner----I had to learn to just back down and let things happen when they did. According to my T it was actually beneficial for me to have to learn that.

Also I know I don't like to drive long distances in crappy weather, perhaps you feel the same way yourself? There is always skype or equivalent----maybe you guys can play xbox together remotely?

I’m that you argued with your bf, sounds to me he needs to understand you more

Good evening/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I'm sorry things aren't going good today, newtus.

I'm doing alright. Was up from 3am to 1pm earlier, and then slept till 430pm and went to get my labret piercing done. I stopped at a K Citymarket and went through the electronics section, not expecting to find much of anything. Well, to my utter surprise and shock, I found a Logitech Orion 610 mechanical keyboard with Cherry MX red switches for 60€. I was shocked to find such a cheaply priced product. I came back later and picked one up. Normally these kinds of boards are at least 100€ or more. Typing on it is a dream. once you go mechanical, you don't go back.

Can you go see him?

Dinner for work

I feel happy and want to joke around. I’m sure now that I’m manic, I am supposed to be sad that fiancé is going back home I feel like texting friends and joking but that’s not a good idea since my joke would be inappropriate joke at times like this. I also really want to do some online shopping but also not a good idea. Why is all my idea not good at the moment.

Thanks SP. this is why i pretty much love you. You are so helpful and seem such of sound mind. You remind me a lot of Door2015. I consider her my best friend because she just gets it with me.

Yea, im gonna have to prob let things come as they are. Maybe i just dont like when things are out of my control??? Idk probably.

I wasnt real upset about the whole coming here today because i understood. It was the fact that last nights argumentative feelings ran over into today. I was hoping to see him and clear things up in person since he doesnt like phone calls. But i mean....its so hard to do that because he lives 30 min away.

Thats just what i dont get about people who are my so called friends. (Not him but others). They complain i live far yet they dont wanna talk on the phone. And texting is fast becoming a pet peeve for me because no fvcking likes freaking talking on the flippin phone!!!

I didnt offer since he said he was gonna finish Christmas shopping. Not sure if he was just telling me that or not. I just left the whole seeing each other things alone.

Amazing as usual