Roll Call 111

My sister says i need to move because this house is not healthy to be in. But i cant just leave my dad here.

I dont have the money to call an exterminator to remove whatevers dead in the wall. So in the meantime ill have to deal with the maggots.

Well, that’s Christmas almost over. As I thought I played with my phone a while and played some Mario.

Just vegging in front of the TV now. Had a wee bit to drink so feeling sleepy.

That’s really good.

Dont get me wrong this is a good Christmas. It just really brought up a lot of depression and anger in me this month. A lot of struggle and sacrificing too.

I think sometimes the holidays can bring up those feelings.

...idk...maybe today isnt really all that good...im trying to be positive but i cant ignore the facts....

I talked to my sister and boyfriend about it a bit.

My goals for 2018 are:

Get a job

Read more

Exercise regularly

Eat healthy

Get a girlfriend

I feel real sick to my stomach because of the situation.

I havent eaten all day except for a beef tamale in the middle of the night.

This is my xmas loot

My goals for 2018:

- Continue exercising regularly
- Eat healthily and lose weight
- Save money
- Try out some dating
- Take better control of my mental health and maybe learn some healthy coping methods because I’m really not good to myself when I feel bad
- Get my driver’s license

Im looking into senior apartments for my dad. He doesnt need to be in a home because he functions just fine. But he really cant care for this house much.

Its just an idea really. Im just inquiring. Hes joked around about living in a senior home/apartments a lot. Too much. I never knew there was such a thing for people his age who are still functional and working.

Its basically a nice living space at a really reduced price. Senior community type style. Not to be confused with an invalid home for people with dementia etc

Well if all else fails we have a mutual goal we can achieve...

I kinda want this day to be over. But i know my problems will only be waiting for me tomorrow. And the next day. And so on.

Luckily, there was a bottle of ginger ale left in the machine. I'm supposed to have done my therapy homework but I didn't. She might be here tomorrow.

@newtus, get some fly strips in case those maggots transform. It's horrible when they turn into flies in huge numbers. Like a horror film.

Hit me up next December hahaha.

I didn't mean to sound bossy. I'm noticing how offensive it is when a relative does it to me. The only thing to do is to stop communicating with them because they don't seem to be capable of reacting like a grown up.

I keep having to pick them up and put them down the toilet. A whole bunch come out every 30 min.

My dad says hes not paying money for someone to knock out a wall. He says i can call but ill have to pay for it myself and i cant afford that. I only have like 100 dollars. I spent most of my christmas money from my mom on groceries and meds.

I feel the same abt every day

Same here

Maybe it would help to put some bug killer near where the maggots are. Ortho Home Defense is good.

It’s just a coloring app, I’m not that good, haha

I’m just sick of the same old **** over and over again 🤨

I’m done it’s the same stupid **** stupid arguments stop it omg... sigh. Family.

My dad finally said he will eventually try to caulk the holes

I was at the top and took a picture of the mountains