Roll Call 111

Thanks guys.

I’m snapping a lot more now wth my phone. Makes a difference having a good camera on your phone, can really take things spur of the moment.

Is this th pixel 2

Yea...

I guess we need to have a very long talk together.

My dad also mentioned we need to talk about what his goals are for the future. Hes at a dead end job now. Its just like when i asked him where did he see himself in 5 years and he was just like talking about living day to day and i was just thinking how i didnt like that answer. Cuz i have goals. I can lay out big goals for the next 5-7 years.

But then its also only been 3-4 months dating. And when i mentioned marriage earlier this month he said it was too early to tell.

I was reading an article about how early is too early to move in together. There was a sentence saying “if one of you see moving in as practical, and the other as a precursor to marriage, dont move in”.

Yup.......

But with all that said, why would he pay off 70 grand for the rest of his life to be with me.

Idk.

The more serious it gets the more my parents seem unsure of him because of what i said and it makes me feel sad.

My therapist wasn't mad at me
We just spoke for awhile. She said she noticed that I was getting triggered and understood. So that's good. I'd better go to the gym now.

Went out to the store again cause I forgot some stuff earlier. Weather is ****, roads are rather quite slick and slippery outside. Also blew my nose a little bit ago...and the right side of my piercing burst out and bled for a few seconds. After the bleeding went away it oozed a little longer. I have been cleaning it the last few days. Freaks me out, hopefully it isn't infected. It's a little less sensitive now.

As I was coming back from putting myself stuff away in the bedroom, I very vividly heard my family's other cockatiel. I came out to my wife and asked her if anything was playing with a cockatiel in it. There was not. It was freaky how vivid I heard him.

Ugh hes still not awake

Roll Call is quiet...

Still working. Can't wait to be done. Just about a half hour left.

Just got off the plane. 16f brrr

Im still waiting for the boyfriend to come over. Its been another hour and a half. The bf just woke up only 30 min ago...

Waiting at the dentist for my daughter.
Cold as heck outside. Only 11 degrees. We're supposed to get snow on Saturday. I hope it's not much. I hate the snow. I'm so afraid of driving in it.
What's everyone up to?

Working. I’m stuck doing legal training rest of the day. Like code of ethics stuff lol. Fuuuunnnnn.

I'm watching TV with my parents. Dr Who Christmas episode.

Thank god im not at work

Went out with the bf to a couple of nature parks and Steak ‘n Shake yum.

Still no smoking all day. I was holding out hope for the 4pm break but it didn't happen. I'm luckier than the smokers because it's easier to go without vaping than smoking. For me. I still want it but hopefully we'll be able to smoke tomorrow.

And I have that cigar vaping thing if I could only figure it out. Part of my stash of contraband. I'll have to turn it all over to them. All the vaping equipment at least.

Oh that just sounds too exciting to be so close to the New Year.

It's funny because I vape way more than I smoked but it is easier to go without. I never really thought of that before.

Oh and I wouldn't turn over my stash unless absolutely necessary.

Hahaha! Yes, that's what I've been thinking but it's better for my reputation here if I voluntarily give it up. They can toss the drawers anytime they want to, and I'm really worried about that. But I want to try that cigar thing in case it works.

I'm bored. My daughter is at a sleepover, my son is sleeping, and my husband isn't home yet. I'm watching a dr pol marathon.

Me too the bf is napping......

my mama got her teeth pulled today... poor woman kept asking for my stepdad and he's busy getting her pain meds from the pharmacy.