Roll Call 114

Wow

My dad wont even let me call the vocational rehab services until he researches it for himself.

This is why i never get anything done. Always waiting for him for approval...

They arent even open on the weekend anyway...

I have FB that I virtually never post on. I only check it every week or so.

The way I see it, people generally couldn't give a ****, so what's the point in sharing articles, photos, whatever?? And I certainly would never post how I felt because, personally, I think it's inappropriate. But then I'm a very, very private person. I don't have any other social media.

Obviously, we have very different views on it, but I certainly don't think that you need to feel bad for people who don't share as much as you do. I certainly don't feel sad about it myself...

*Willow*

Omg, I remember having to bath Max soooooo much when he was a puppy. He'd get in so many messes! But it chilled out when he got older, thankfully, because there is no way that I can see to bathe a dog without getting equally as wet!

*Willow*

I'm so, so sorry about your fur babies, Valley Please take gentle care of yourself.

*Willow*

Im highly annoyed right now.

My pss wants me to goto a clubhouse for people with mental illness. But i cant help but think that if i keep immersing myself in with people who are sick ill forever live in misery and using crutches to get by. I already dont goto group for a reason. I really dont want to goto a fvcking place like that. Pisses me off. I dont want to be around sick people all the time. The only people i know are sick and they complain all the fvcking time. Its so fvcking depressing. Im TRYING to get out of that state of mind myself. I dont want to ADD to it.

People like her dont realize i need to make a variety of friends. Not just people who are mentally ill.

This clinic is just making me SICKER. It just holds me down.

Not really sure. She was a rescue. I said 12 but probably older.

Well I did it. Sniveling mess that I am it made me throw up. My chair feels so empty.
. Her favorite place to rest her head.

I am sorry . It's always so hard.

I made dis

Oh, she's had a long life in doggie years. And she is lucky you were able to give her a great life.

Well, my hunch proved correct - when I screw the coil into the base, the base easily screws on level. Instead of screwing the coil into the base, we've been screwing the coil onto the chimney in the tank.

So, now I'll never have to ask for help screwing the base on level. If only I still had a whole box of coils I could have changed them in both the tanks and had two flavors to choose from. And now, my latest peeve is that the caps on my bottles from VW are too hard to get off the bottles. I'm switching them with better caps as I use up the extra bottles. So I'm really glad about the tanks screwing on right.

The next thing I have to do is throw out the garbage in the bag. I didn't do that because there was no trash can where I was.

The machine is out of ginger ale too. I bought another Sprite Zero. I wish I had put a new coil in. :/

Yes the last almost 5 years were good to her. When they found her she was full of mange and had deadly pneumonia. She only weighed 10 lbs. the first part of her life was hard but she landed in a loving home. Plenty of food, water, treats, pats, belly rubs, and tons of love. I’m grateful for the time I had with her. She was literally the sweetest dog in the world. Okay I’ll stop.

No need to stop, unless it makes you sadder. I was destroyed when my cat died in 99. You gave Soph a great home and a very happy life.

She gave me a good life too ❤️

Its so amazing how when i dont have anything to do usually something happens where i do

Take out night. Thank god I don’t think I could cook tonight. I’m heartbroken .

What you do for work/school doesn’t define who you are....I think you are a wonderful person who is dealing with the burden of psychosis etc right now. I know we are taught to define ourselves with work but there is so much more to life. Focus on the things you love to do or if you’re depressed focus on the things you used to love.

True...defining myself by what I do for work/school was what got me into at least part of my mental health problems. It's just, I want to be productive again. I was doing so well for a number of months, and its like things are taking a 180. My partner suggested maybe the olanzapine dose increase could be causing trouble? I prolly should be in hospital....though, am I acting psychotic too? Like if I am I was not aware....

Hey, is your wife awake? I think you need the hospital today/tonight.

Washed my hair. Part of my hair is falling out in the front. When i was in high school i burned off part of it lighting a cigarette with a gas lighter. Now no hair grows there and its getting worse because i rarely wash my hair.

I don’t think you’ve said anything psychotic....I just meant in general it’s something you’re dealing with that’s holding you back unfairly. You really should be in the hospital to protect yourself. I hope you tell someone and check yourself in.

I’m so sorry. I was so wrapped up in myself I missed this. this isnt the first time you’ve mentioned this and it’s worrisome. Have you considered the hospital?
I really hope you find a way to feel better. You are wonderful and have so much to offer.