Roll Call 114

Yes, it doesn't sound like they were particularly communicative. But wait and see, maybe something will show up in the blood work. Meanwhile I hope Soph will feel better.

I'm huddled under my nursing home magic blanket (it's so warm for being like a thin bedspread). I've been so cold since 1. Even if there is a vape break I don't think I can stand the cold. Better expect nothing from tomorrow.

I keep having to pee! It's driving me crazy.

I have peed like 5 times since starting my bottle of Coke at around 3pm. I feel so messed up. I have liver or kidney pain it feels like. Or GI pain and sickness.

I put the heat on. I'll wait until I get too warm and then turn it off. I feel so crappy.

It sucks. I am used to having to pee every hour or so....but then again I'm on a diuretic. I hope you feel better soon, and that it isn't something like a UTI.

I get what you meant Thanks... I hope so too.

Thanks, FR. No, my body just does this sometimes. It usually only happens if I have a diet soda, not usually with regular Coke. I just hope it's over now lol. How long are you supposed to take the diuretic?

Oh wow, that's really interesting. Sometimes I get very swollen ankles (since I was in my 30s) and I have used very mild diuretics when I was younger. I needed one really badly in 2013 after I had come back from the hospital and had to discontinue all my meds (because I wouldn't leave my apartment). My feet and ankles were ballooned out like crazy. I couldn't get any shoes or slippers on my feet because my feet were too big. It lasted for 6 weeks. Oh my God. Remembering that again.

I went out and immediately regretted it. It is so cold and the wind is furious.
Tomorrow is supposed to be cold too.
Stupid Phil and that damn shadow.

Hope you feel better.
I had my husband turn on the wood stove again. I’m freezing.

Yeah, the wind makes it so much colder. It must be blowing towards my windows.

Hope you'll warm up toasty. I fell asleep - they woke me to take my meds and now I don't know if I can get back to sleep.

Bf left

Had an awesome day with him!!!

Glad to hear you had a good day Newtus.

Thanks! We went like 7 places including the nature museum.

Tomorrow we'll be going shopping and doing some drinking at my house.

"The thing about doctors/psychologist is if you are not halucinating and able to physically perform everyday tasks yet have the diagnosis of schizophrenia, they consider you successful, when in fact you still have problems that would cripple other people beyound belief and which would send others screaming to a psychiatrist/pyschologist. You might still have anxiety and severe depression (on top of the negative symptoms too boot) yet I feel they don't take these issues as seriously as if you were a person soley seeking therapy for anxiety or depression when in fact everything needs to be addressed.."

I found that on reddit. Hits the nail..

Given my life situation, I should stop focusing all my time panicking about negative symptoms. There's nothing I can do.

I feel like a vegetable.

But I'm reading that reddit comment to my psychiatrist on Monday.

Hey Newt =]

U up

Yea how are you? Im drinking coffee.

Had another weird dream. Not feeling great. Going out today though. Taking the pup out to a cafe that takes dogs and have a wander around the market. Last time we carried him and we’re swamped with people wanting to stroke him haha

I'm good. Had a bit of a breakdown if you noticed my deleted posts lol.

Had two cups of coffee yesterday and still can't sleep. Probably because I slept so much the past few days.

Gonna bring my G-PRIV 2 to work in the morning =P

Damn you got the 2?

I won a Snowwolf on instagram yesterday

Yeah you're the vape expert so I'm vaping right now at 60W like you said so I don't cough.

3am here. I can't stand to lay in bed it's too much torture.

Maybe try to walk around some. 4am here.