Roll Call 125

I was going to make a tumblr account but it said "Looks like you're going to have to use a different user name because this one is already used" so I said f u and clicked x

Eww tumblr

I never got into tumblr. I tried. Its just the one social media i couldnt do.

I did enjoy memes that came from tumblr but the whole... I identify as a submarine or some silly **** like that gives those who are trans a bad name.

That is genius!

I had this really good friend on tumblr but in retrospect we were bad for each other’s mental health. She helped me navigate the ropes of Silk Road. But she tragically died last year.

Im really paranoid and depressed

I fked up

at work AGAINNNN

What happened?

Saaaaaame.

I told the bf i was paranoid and scared of the police cuz im black. I made the mistake of saying hes got privilege because hes white. Truth is he does to some extent. But he got angry. I shouldve just never said it. But i want to talk to him when he wakes up because i want to tell him that i feel like we should be able to talk about these things in a relationship.

Most all of the bf and i’s relationship is having fun and having sex. I want it to be a deeper relationship.

But hes an aries and aries get angry easy.

Im ugly. In every way.

Im depressed

I dont want to talk to anyone today.

Im praying my zoloft helps my mood today

Im crying

I really wish i knew why i was like this. The bf also said hes sick of me putting myself down. He doesn’t understand its part of my depression. Im not a happy person nor do i have self confidence.

And all he wants is for me to be happy and confident and thats the top two things i cannot do. I wish i knew why i am like this.

The only thing i can think of is being bullied all my life, first in high school and now by family, is what tears me down. I cant stand being constantly bullied by my mom. Im sick of being called fat and unhealthy by her. Im sick of being called weird and ugly by everyone else.

Im sick of being friendless and lonely and wondering why people dont like me. Even though i know im mean because people have made me this way.

I hate myself in every way.

Join the club...
You're not ugly though, you have a partner.

Hey guys. I’m already back in bed! I had very little work. Going to take a nap and then go see my guy.
Hope everyone has a good day.

I see what youre saying but i cant imagine being the size that i am that im attractive.

Well even the most liberal thinking white person gets upset when they are told they are privilege because they feel it downplays their struggles and refuse to see racism still is a big problem for those of other races.

I dont understand how people know black people have less of an advantage because of their skin color but refuse to see that their white skin has an advantage.

Because like I said they feel it downplays their own struggles.

I feel extremely uneasy right now and my left ear started ringing

Good afternoon/morning everyone. How are things going?

I'm...so so. I went to band this morning and my mood was still not good after last night. I started to break down again and crying in the middle of things while others were doing stuff. I talked to the coordinator and he talked to me about how this is a journey, and that I should not go too fast. That we are all in this together, and helping and growing with each other. Two of the vocalists had me come outside and we all talked. I feel so exposed talking about these things. But they got me feeling better and then we all went and jammed for an hour and it helped my mood a lot. We're planning it again tomorrow.


What's everyone up to?

playing a game with t and some peeps tonite

Had a pretty good day. Slept in again. Went for a run and been watching Louis Theroux shows on Netflix.

I deleted the facebook app

Its literally coming in between my relationship

I am officially out of the "overweight" category on the bmi scale!!!