Psychic Spies and Psychosis

Interview with Hal Puthoff who's the creator of The CIA's psychic spy program.

https://www.reddit.com/r/conspiracy/..._in_use_today/

Short biography of psychic spy Harold Puthoff from the CIA reading room.
https://www.cia.gov/library/readingr...00300004-3.pdf

When I was feeling very psychotic I was hallucinating that bad guy characters from the television show Star Gate SG-1 had real world good guy counterparts that were part of Project Stargate (the psychic spy program). Senator Kinsey was really Lindsey Graham and there was version of Anubis who wore a grey suit, and I could sense him and Lindsey Graham. Psychic Lindsey Graham was angry at me for summoning psychic Vladimir Putin.

Thanks for all these posts and links LibertyBelle.
I have read quite a bit about SRI and the government funded research they did there.

Very interesting stuff.

I can probably dig up some more dirt. My voices call me a "mushroom" because I feed on the CIA's waste.

Hit me up in PC chat sometime and I'll tell you about why specifically I think "they"'re after me.

I've been keeping this all bottled up for about a year. It's been cathartic to make these posts and pool all of my research in one spot. Maybe it'll help someone. The people in my life, mom and boyfriend, think I'm making myself worse when I bring this stuff up but I really just need to vent it.

I really appreciate all the support I've gotten here.

Thank you and everyone else for being wonderful.

Its just games.

Banned Ted Talk about ESP for intelligence work.

But why would CIA want its people's utter destruction? Why wouldn't they just kill you...

Psychosis is a purely biological disorder. That comes from someone who has it and doesn't live in the US. I am sorry you've to go through this, but I suggest you to not overthink its causes and focus on more important things in life instead, planning about how can you live a more productive life. A content one, to say at least.

I don't think they're trying to destroy me.

I used to joke and say, I told the psychiatrist I am not crazy; I am a victim of government mind control, but he wrote down crazy any how.
As a profession, psychiatrist have the highest skepticism of any kind of psi evidence. Their whole theoretical structure is based on their patience having a chemical imbalance and any thoughts of influence outside of the individual is merely a delusion.

I am interested in psi research because it shows evidence that the human psychic isn't totally self contained.

They know they lie probably due to the system. Its all a hiearchy of power.

That is not the reality... you people aren't "crazy", nor "lunatics" nor are you being controlled by anybody. I live far away from the States yet I have psychosis. It's purely, purely BIOLOGICAL that you feel this way. It's not about the system or hierarchy. It's that our neuroanatomy and body physiology has been affected by something external (like a traumatic event, physical trauma or injury, asphyxiation etc.) In med school you don't pass because your dad is a CIA agent, you pass because you worked smart enough to do well in tests.

We are crazy or deranged , we are just ill. You may as well as say bacteria that adapt to our current antibiotics are also created by the CIA. It's purely, purely natural selection and something natural.... CIA or no CIA.

I met a woman in my Hearing Voices Network meeting with voices nearly identical to mine but her voices are religion themed instead of espionage themed.

I'm really just trying to share my story of espionage themed voices. All these voices and links have be rattling around my brain.

I think Bryan Tew is just ill but his stories have helped me with my illness, particularly his advice about listing to pleasing music. I listen to different musics than he does but it still helps me when my voices are really bad.

Marla Frees has learned to live with her voices in a positive way. I find that inspiring.

Are you in therapy? Do you visit a psychiatrist? I was referred to a psychiatrist two years ago and he healed my psychosis. I no longer hear voices nor have strong delusions. I no longer vomit while eating. I no longer feel that my thoughts are being broadcasted.

The only disadvantage is that I have painful insight in me. I can never, ever be a doctor. That's what my shrink told me.

Thanks LibertyBelle. I really enjoy listening to Russel Targ. He has written a number of books also about their research at SRI. He also coauthored a book with a Buddhist slant that I found very benificial entited The End of Suffering.

Yes I have a therapist. He put me on Olanzapine, Adderall and Effexor and he's recommending me for medical marijuana. He's treating my trauma and voices. My trauma went untreated when I was in Los Angeles. My voices are for the most part gone but they really shook me to the core the last time they flaired up from February till May.

I've had two psychotic breaks and both of them were espionage themed.

I decided to start making posts about psychic spies because I encountered Marla Frees on a radio program and she said that she hears voices too.

Effexor seemed to dry up my voices better than Olanzapine but it could be that the Olanzapine finally built up in my system around the time that I was stated on Effexor. It's hard to know for sure.

That was so nice to hear! I was hearing voices for about six months. They were very aggressive to say at least. They made me cry and break down many times. So much that I forgot how to feel anger. I am currently on Divalproex sodium and Aripiprazle and risperidone now. I was on olanzapine too but my psych doc switched meds with sertraline (setex) later.

I don't hear voices but I still have other knacks. I wish my nerve damage could heal though. I want to be a doctor (a surgeon more specifically.)

Just courious, if you don't mind me asking, did the psychiatrist find the right medication for you or do you feel that they cured you through psychotherapy?
You mention painful insight so I am thinking that psychotherapy may have played a big part.
I feel like insight played a big part in my recovery.

Sorry, I didn't see your recent post.

Nope, Shoe, anything is okay for me.

My psychiatrist found the right med for me, and due to some reasons he didn't bother to give me psychotherapy, I sometimes wonder why... the insight is painful because my psychiatrist simply remained silent when I asked him about my conditions, so I searched the internet as well as downloaded both DSM-V and ICD-10, which gave me a good interest in psychology. Soon I realized I have nerve damage in my hands and that I may have various disorders ranging from BPD to disorganized schizophrenia.

Sucks for the nerve damage, I want to be a surgeon... I don't know how will it work out.

Did the US and Russia Have Psychic Soldiers

i would look at your links but my husband told me to stay out of them as he is worried about we just had a fight about conspiracy theorys i find them fascinating and out the box thinking i have OCD on top of psychosis he worried my head will get too far with it
i feel like not eating because i think they have poisoned my food but if i dont eat it i'll get ill but if to do eat it i will get ill no win win sometimes i think am ill but i cant always tell maybe i am maybe am not either way i have no choice but to take my medication witch is also slowly killing me because the amount of anti psychotics am taking the dr dont tell you this **** they lie they dont tell you that it will put weight on you they lie about the side effects but i have to take them if not my husband will get upset and i dont want to upset him he is my carer as well we fight all the time over my mental health and am now seeing my pastor about our relationship because i am mental but if i say anything that goes against the normal am mental am not allowed to think out side the box i cant afford to if i want to stay in this relationship ( nearly typed relationSHIT talk about a slip ) the thing is there are spies out there this we know weather they have anything to do with what we see and feel we FEEL that we could be shitting ourselves because we think the CIA is going to just through the windows RIGHT OR WRONG WE FEEL THAT AND SOMEONE SHOULD TAKE NOTE OF THAT FACT
whatever is right or wrong people need to express it what is norm is that you MUST have a mental health problem if you think out side the box Artists creative people with mental health have amazing minds why cant what they feel be true Am at a point where i cant watch the news with out my husband saying something its driving me mad
because i like the news i like politics but am not allowed to engage in that because i cant as ill end up locked up in the asylum where they dont do very much to engage with thoese who are there as long as they behave themselves and if there good boys and girls they get to go home sooner. anyway thank you for the post and not being sarcastic its interesting

Psychic Spies Documentary (might be an episode of The Unexplained, a television show from the 1990s)

I'm on Olanzapine and I've stopped hearing voices but sometimes I still "feel" "their eyeballs on me".

And I daydream (involuntarily, damn it I wish I could focus on studies) a lot about the voices... I am very dissociated. But I will still try to be a doctor anyway, f*k everything that comes in my way to medicine. After I get into a nice government medical college, I will live in hostel and therefore will have the environment to try to subdue my dissociation on my own.

Here's a Ted Talk, it's not about psychic spies but it is about a woman studying to be a doctor while hearing voices.

https://www.ted.com/talks/eleanor_lo...ces_in_my_head