Roll Call 126!

No. Not to my home. She has a few times. She said she doesnt like to tho because its my dads house. I guess she thinks something bad will happen. Either legal or whatever. It wouldnt tho. Ive told her. But she still wont come out here.

Yeah, likely.

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This would be an example of a double wide trailer

I feel like I’m just fcking up I can’t do anything right. Just fcking up and fcking up I’m fcking up my mental health just destroying everything.

I sabotage a lot too

I've actually been working on it in therapy recently. discovering the reasons behind it

Yeah my friends had double wide....

VENTING:
Started work at 9am, I told the boss I havce to leave at 8pm, and he asked, "What , you got a curfew?" Matter of fact I do! And told him ill see him in 13 hours. My boss can't keep me there forever like that. He needs to get more employees. And he still hasn't even given me the paper work to start being on payroll, and that was almost 3 weeks ago.

VENT OVER

Dude, my cat has the entire bed to sit on and she has to sit on the chip bag. I mean... I even moved it, and she moved again to sit on it again. She must smell the salt or something. She loves salt.

I get akathasia now, which gives me restless legs. It's horrible. I use to take Cogentin for it. It's a side effect pill because so many meds like AP's cause it. But I learned that if I just have a protein shake every evening I don't get it.

Does it go away during any part of the day? Mine would go away around 3pm.

I was on Cogentin for a bit and it made my vision so blurry I could barely work lmao.

Same girl.

Side effects pills has side effects

Big pharma

I learned a valuable lesson today concerning bacon. Never run through a narrow hallway carrying 3 trays of it on a rack, when they just came out of the oven.

Are you okay?!

I burned my arm a tad. Nothing serious. I did however drop the top pan of diced bacon. It fell onto the floor and the soup heater. That was fun to clean up, later on we still found bacon pieces in crevices. Mostly it was embarrassing. I told my boss that she saw nothing, and that it was her imagination if she did.

2am I lay down on the grass in the front yard look at the moon behind the clouds and watch the cars pass by.

*sleeps*

I just woke up again it’s 2:38am here. A whole 7.5hours. I was up for 19hours yesterday.

Stayed up all night. It's half past 6 in the morning now. I don't have class till 2 pm but what the hell, I am here anyway

So I'm going to call my clinic today and see what the heck is up with that therapist assignment thing

I haven’t seen my trauma counsellor in over a month now I am beginning to think maybe I will never again.

I am making a shopping list what to get at “superstore” in the next town over later on today.

Is there a reason?

So in the anxiety/panic/agoraphobia book I'm reading there's a bunch of things for you to do everyday. Start the day off with funny videos. Research and learn as much as you can about the disorder and neuroscience and brain stuff, listen to podcasts etc take notes. Take up a hobby, mine are drawing and learning Italian, it's just the beginning of the program, things to give you more confidence and what not. I like it so far

day off. they asked if I wanted to work overtime tmrw but I had to decline because I have a summer cold or something

feeling crap but oh well. gonna rest today then back to work tmrw and the next and the next and the next and the next... ad infinitum

Well I missed an appointment that I was suppose to make according to someone I had talked to that day but it never panned out. And all those times before I was told she was not in the office by her we have been in contact via email.

But I sent her two messages and wondered where she went to and why nothing was happening. I know she wear multiple hats and works multiple jobs. I am just wondering when or if I will hear back from her. We had run out of paid sessions by crime victim services.

I had offered to pay for at least 2 sessions per month. But I am not sure if anything like that will happen. I don’t know I wish she would really get back to me it worries me when I don’t get anything back at all not even a whisper.

I'm sorry to hear that, it's unfortunate how many people are struggling and just kind of get left hanging like that waiting. I hope you hear something soon or are able to figure something out

Morning/Afternoon,

Had a productive day of sorts. Picked up my suit this morning, went to shops and got a haircut. Sat out in the sun for a bit... in shorts and tshirt. Was nice,

Planning on watching Japan vs Poland shortly and then of course the England vs Belgium game later.

Also have to pack for going away to my parents tomorrow. I think I’ll just look stuff out tonight and then get up early tomorrow to pack.

Oh and I’ve heard nothing back about the supermarket job... the online info says “under review” but I read other people applying at that supermarket have had it like that for ages. So really need to get down to searching for other jobs. Would have at least liked an interview but oh well.

Anyway hope everyone is ok!