Roll Call 127

I believe in you.

Please tell me that’s photoshopped.

Ugh this is gonna be a long azz day.

Mine too. My son is gone and I’m dropping my daughter off in a little while. Then I’ll be alone for a couple hours.
My husband gave me money for smoke <3 so I’ll do that I guess.
Sometimes I almost wish I had friends. Just someone to ****ing talk to once in a while. I can talk to my bestest but we live in different worlds. She gets up when my kids get home and gets out of work when I’m sleeping. I suck at maintaining connections though so I don’t even bother trying.

Im bored

This is my weight every so often since 2013

Im 193 now

Where is everyone

I'm around....not feeling good. But I am around.

An uncomfortableness just came over me while i was thinking about my mom.

I feel nauseous now 🤢

England Croatia game......

Omg yall

When is the madness gonna end

Sunday.......

Sunday...

Finally remembered to call my pnp. Of course she’s gone for the day. Oh well she’s good. I’ll hear back from her tomorrow.
My husband will be home in 40 minutes! Can’t wait. I’m feeling kind of low and he always makes me feel better.
I went and hung out with my guy and his wife for a little bit. They were drinking though and that’s not my scene.

I’m planning my menu for while I’m away. Lol. Yes I have that little going on. So far I have 3 nights planned. The first night I’m making chicken Alfredo. That’s the only night we’ll spend any time in the hotel. The next night I’m making antipasto squares they only take a half hour so even if we get back at 10 it won’t be the end of the world. Not sure what to make next...maybe frozen pizza. The night we leave we’ll stop in at a restaurant.
I’m going to cook all the foods I won’t cook at home because I don’t use a/c at home.

That is all....

Sorry dude 😰

My Snapchat has stopped working for some reason

Aww I guess things didn’t go well. Sorry.
That’s how I felt when my team lost the Super Bowl.

Just got back from the doctor. Upped me to 60mgs again. I think I mentioned earlier that I slept with the lights on last night because I thought something bad would happen. I told him about that. Talked a bit about the psych appointment I had last week. He doesn’t have the full report so he doesn’t want to put me on anything else just wait for the report.

So we’ll do the 60mg for the next month and see what happens if I need another adjustment.

Not super excited about them faxing my prescription directly to my pharmacy because I went there and they don’t even have it yet. I might not even get it today I might not get it until tomorrow. Stupid.

Edit: My doctor said I seemed off. Which I feel so at least someone notices the difference.

Hope upping the dosage again helps. It’s so weird to me that the psych didn’t want to see you on an ongoing basis. I’ve been pretty stable for years and I still see my pnp every 3 months.

Well, it’s Canada so what they really do is your family doc is your main treatment but they send you for psych evals to suggest treatment options. They offered me counselling but I’m not really interested in that.

I took a 3 hour nap

Oh I see.
I’m not in to counseling either. It was hell when I had to go.

I’m bad at talking about my feelings and I’m easily embarrassed. It’s not like I have a bunch of trauma or anything to get through it’s just all... chemical.