Roll Call 132

The bf said dont get my hopes up tho about the apt cuz we havent even filled out an application yet.

Hes right. Hopefully they even have 1 bdrms left tomorrow...

Yeah a lot of them will do like a credit check or want referrals from previous rentals.....

Yea i do know that. I think this specific place is a bit different tho if im correct because it caters to people who have low income and bad credit. Which is probably why its getting filled fast.

Theres a few other places like this one in this area and they NEVER have vacancies. One place i checked for 2 years.

Crinkly fries i baked.

Hmmm may go bake some garlic bread....

I think i might need a Benadryl to calm down tho.

My paranoia is killing me no matter what my wife and partner tell me.

A week to go hopefully...I want this to end. I want to feel okay. Cops are coming for me. It's tough. Idk...

I was at work. Went and got a Blizzard after work now watching the news.

My job counselor just called.

I told him my pick for a therapist. Hes gonna send in a service order and they will call me

What kind of blizzard?

Did you mention the interview?

No. But hes not in charge of it anyway. My coordinator is.

I have a job counselor and a job coordinator.

I dont think im gonna do the interview actually since im moving further away.

Reason is, i dont plan to stay in this area because cost is too high to live.

My coordinator said she’ll only help me once more if i get fired from a job or quit, then shell ill have to find a new coordinator.

Um...

This is something i never talk about.. but

My ocd is flaring up. Probably cuz im excited. Im touching everything in 3’s. And rolling my eyes around 3 times.

Jeez how embarrassing

You could probably relocate through Best Buy and just change stores.....I know you’re looking for reasons not to go but if you decide not to go you should call them and let them know so you’re not on some nationwide Best Buy 💩 list.

Reese. Oreo is the best but damn gluten.

my pdoc didn't want to majorly change my meds so we may add a mood stabilizer next month.

Hahaha ok. I will.

Yeah I didn’t get a med change either......

Honestly ive wanted a work from home job ever since i wanted a job. The only job i feel compelled to do was with Apple stores.

It was never my intention to really go for a retail store in the first place. I even told my job counselor that. My notes from that psychologist last may even said i dont need to be around people. I was just too scared to tell the coordinator i wanted a work from home job.

Answering the phone was a mistake.

Then you should be honest with the coordinator...filling out all those applications isn’t trivial....so they just won’t apply to retail next time....

She knows now.

I am so scared of people. Im scared to tell people how im really feeling sometimes and what i want and need cuz im just so scared of people teling me no.

Ok well people might say no to some things but most people are trying to avoid confrontation.....

I try to think of people as inherently good but with everything going on it’s extremely hard.

yet in Christianity everyone is born inherently bad.... sinners I mean.