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Man I miss my dogs. I have no one to cuddle with in the mornings. When I FaceTimed them last night they started whining and crying . My husband said my dog wouldn’t even sleep in the bed. He just sits by the door . The pup is doing better he’s more of a family dog where Henry is all mine. We have a crazy bond. I know it sounds silly but I got him just after my beloved lab got hit by a car. He was sweet and friendly and we fell in love at first sight. I still can’t believe how lucky I was to get him. Someone else put in an app first but when the shelter saw us together they chose me as his owner. He was housebroken and furniture broken so someone at some point took care of him before they dropped him off on the highway. For the longest time I was afraid someone would come forward and try to claim him.
The first weekend I had him we brought him to the beach. There was a loose dog that charged my kids teeth bared running full speed. Henry jumped in front of the kids and fought the dog. Unfortunately we all ended up in the ocean in freaking March lol. But he kept the dog at bay until his owners finally showed up. They had the nerve to give me **** about the dog fight. If not for Henry me and my kids would have been attacked by their loose aggressive dog.
He’s also allergic to bees. The day after I brought him home he came running to me so I pet him and felt a huge lump. I freaked of course thinking I was going to lose my new dog. I layer down and he jumped on top of me and started freaking out. Got him settled and my husband was like he’s covered in hives. Benadryl to the rescue. Now he has an epi pen.
He also had vicious separation anxiety. He ate all the door knobs in my house. If come home to pools of drool everywhere. I decided to kennel him and he busted through the wire kennel. It took a couple months but he finally figured out he was home and safe. Now he’s perfect when left alone. Especially if the pup is with him.
And there are the stories of my soul dog. He’s sat with me through panic attacks, psychosis, uncontrollable depression and crying. Aside from my family he’s the best thing to happen to me. Best $250 I ever spent. Pretty cheap when you think of the unconditional love and support of a dog. Everyone should go out today and adopt a dog!

Ugh. That sucks. I hope they don’t cancel your services. Will you still have insurance if they stop your check? Sorry I don’t know how it works. Paying for health insurance is a back breaker. So freaking expensive for everything.

Morning

Having coffee

I drank cbd tea last night to goto sleep

I went RIGHT to sleep!

if they do take away my disability payments I will lost my Medicaid and Medicare which covers all medical costs 100% for me

however in September I will be getting blue cross blue shield insurance thru my full time job

Damn.
That’s great. I like bcbs but their deductibles and copays will be higher. I wish I could get disability just for the insurance. My meds this month will be in excess of $300 because my insurance now demands 90 day supplies for maintenance drugs. Big pharma killing us in more ways than one.

yes I will have co pays which is gonna be an adjustment because with Medicaid and Medicare I had no copay

Medicare was my primary insurance and covered 80% of all costs

then Medicaid covered the remaining 20%

so all my Dr appointments cost nothing to me.. the only thing I pay is $1.20 for med refills

So the lady emailed me back in the middle of the night.

She said i will know most likely know if we got accepted for the apt by today.

Wow that’s quick!
Good luck.

Yes! She said she would most likely email me if i did or not instead of phone call.

The kids won’t get up. I knew we went to bed too late. 2 am is definitely not conducive to an early morning with kids.
My hotel neighbors are still partying. They have been quiet but they’ve been on the deck playing music and drinking beer since we got here yesterday. Beer at 6 am? No thank you.

Took my morning med and b12

Hello everyone. How are things going?

I'm not sure what to do about things right now. I called customs last night and discussed things and they said I may need to speak to an investigator but that because it wasn't my fault I should be okay. I feel like law enforcement is still after me.


I don't know who is after me but I feel they are. Talking to my wife and roommate helped but now I'm stuck again with my own thoughts. Maybe I'll go for a walk.

I tried to reach my mental health support team but the phone system was down. So maybe tomorrow then.

a walk sounds like a great idea! How’s the weather?

Sorry im not helping everyone out as much. Im trying but im very wrapped up in all the changes that’s happening with me right now.

Beautiful weather coming up at home. 80s and sunny. The kids will be hot. Going to be 89 their first day. My son starts with shop this year so he can’t wear shorts.
I feel like taking a nap lol. I’m so comfy all wrapped up. The tub here is amazing it’s a two person whirlpool. I slept in it for about 10 minutes I was so chill.
I was a bad mom and bought chocolate chip muffins for breakfast. I swear we’re all going to be 10 lbs heavier after this trip.
I found a candy store and bought 2 lbs of assorted candies (chocolate covered coffee beans, strawberries, cranberries, etc). Then I bought a lb of fudge.

I have nothing to do today

Gonna be alone today

So excited to go zip lining. It’s across a big river. Going to be scary lol. I’m such a wuss I’m surprised I want to do it. Wish I could take my phone to get pics from the summit ride.

Jesus christ valley! a LB!!!!!

I think if i find out today its not gonna be til after 4pm.

Ugh want a couple kids newt? They’ll keep you company and give you something to do since they are intent on fighting and wrestling. Sigh.

Maybe babies but ill pass on teens 🤣

God im literally so excited

I hope we get approved!!!

Did about 2500 steps today. Weather is in the mid 60s and its sunny out.

Band leader asked me how I was doing today after yesterday. I told him what was going on and that I didn't get into the doctor or therapist today. Maybe he's sending someone after me. It's scary to think about.