Roll Call 132

Im not even tired

Ugh i dont wanna be alone tomorrow and friday ughhhh

I’m always a little tired nowadays.

I think being busy this morning plus the b12 and coffee helped kickstart my energy

I would be like nothing without coffee I stg.

I just realized what stg means. Thanks cog!

Ugh. My sister popped up on my Facebook. Apparently she got out of jail and went right back to social media. She must have been on my page for her to pop up like that. Tough **** it’s locked down and I don’t use it. She’s engaged again @@. Posting pics of the kids that don’t talk to her. Pathetic.

Yeah I’m torn on sea world too. I loved it as a kid. One of my favorite trips. But now I see how they used to capture the whales from the wild . And they seem so unhappy in those small tanks. The depression is visible.
I’m torn on all things like that. Zoos work to reproduce and stuff but those animals are still out of their natural habitat. Good for the future just not so much for the ones in captivity now.

Great now I’m reading about captive whales .

I'm glad I've never been to seaworld.

Yeah. Even if I could afford it I wouldn’t bring the kids. I’d rather take them on a whale watch tour. We used to go all the time as kids. It was incredible to see those monsters break the surface.
Too bad I get sea sick lol

I have my mom's wedding ring. I had to resize it.
I don't plan on getting married until after college and I have a job. IDK I never worried about marriage. Never thought much of it. In my opinion, marriage is basically just a legal paper saying you are bound together by law.

Ah crap. I forgot my daughters abx at the other hotel. She’s freaking out because the doctor told her to take all of them. She forgets that she has eyes and hands she can pack with too. Now she’s bent. Good thing it’s almost time for bed.

I feel like I’m missing out. My mother and sister are watching tv without me because I’m going to bed. I want to join them but I know I’ll just fall asleep on the couch anyway.

I got real FOMO now.

Btw took my meds time for bed.

Pretty much.
I was over the moon to get engaged but never thought much about getting married until I got pregnant lol. Medical coverage is a good motivator.
Otherwise I probably wouldn’t have gotten married until my mom got sick (I needed to take care of her). Was never a big deal to me. We were together 9 years before we got married.

Bedtime meds ended up making me groggy in the mornings and I definitely don't need that. Actually all the medications they had for bedtime didn't really help. The antipsychotics knocked me out. I was on so many medications like 6 or 7 back then. All at once too. My new doctor weened me off of them because we couldn't tell what was doing what. Made a clean slate.

At this time. I think marriage will get rid of my ssdi from my dad because of disability and I need my insurance mainly and of course I pay bills with it. I think we are still young anyways no rush. I'm 22.

In May, we will have been together for 7 years

I am supposed to take a total of 7 meds. Right now I’m taking 4. I ran out and forgot to refill. I’ll get them Friday when I get home.
I’d like to lessen that to 5. Latuda, lamictal, Zoloft, Ativan and ambien. Well I’d eventually like to get off the ambien and Ativan too. But I don’t see that happening soon.

Yes. Plenty of time to worry about marriage. You’re still a baby .
Getting married would definitely screw up your dads ssdi.

I take Wellbutrin, Lexapro, and Buspar. Things been going good lately. I'm going back out in public daily and I honestly haven't done that in a couple years also I have to take public speaking so they recently added Buspar. Hope things go well going back to "normal" life.

Glad to hear things are going well. It’s like a miracle when the med cocktail actually does what it’s supposed to do.

I literally been chilling at home and with my bfs family. Occasionally, I would go out in public. Now, I will be going back into public everyday (well Monday-Friday).

So makes me nervous because it's been awhile.