Roll Call 132

I'm sorry, Erti. I didn't know what to say about what you went through.

I'm so sorry.

Depressed

Thanks. what my uncle said before he passed away is getting to me. my mom naturally trash talks my dad and my uncle said she shouldn't do that because there's something inside of me that makes me still want a relationship with my dad. honestly it doesn't bother me.

sorry if I seem desperate for input. i just don't feel good right now and that makes me snippy.

Something weird just happened

I told the bf that that apt complex that hasnt been built yet is starting to take applications.

He told me “lets fill it out together Saturday ”

🤭

2.4 micrograms daily is all you need of vitamin B12. You might have a deficiency if you have digestive diseases, immunodeficiency, or a restrictive diet, such as being vegan. B12 is readily available in meat, fish, poultry, eggs, milk, yogurts, cheese, fortified cereal, some mushrooms and seaweed. Excess consumed is excreted in urine.

I couldn't remember the recommended amount so i looked it up.

Thanks! Yea i need to get tested. I know my doctor said i was deficient in 2 vitamins but i forgot which. And that was maybe 3 years ago or so.

You didn't come across as snippy at all.

Because of work?

Almost time for meds in 30 min

already took my meds. Tomorrow I have a pdoc appointment. Going to see if i can get on a mood stabilizer. I feel exhausted with feelings and i don't know what else to do.

Took my meds

My mom said everything seems to be good timing. Like the apartment is now filling out applications and im applying to jobs.

She said this is good timing and everything is falling into place.

That and my heart is beating fast and I'm tired. I had 2 naps today.

I was wondering why it said "Sorry, for some reason reddit can't be reached" and it was down today.

my current love interest has a 5 year old son. funny thing... the kid looks just like him. his mama gave him some ****ed up hair cut.

I don't think I'm depressed it could be negative symptoms. I wonder if the injection will help when it kicks in.

shouldn't it already kick in?

Idk I guess that's why I had a second nap

I wonder if you could choose to not freak out about your heart beats. I know it isn't easy, but see if you can change your attention when you catch yourself in anxiety.

I've discovered here that I can tell exactly when my anxiety spikes because I'll say "hurry". As soon as I say that word my anxiety is recognized and dismissed, which is amazing. So my "hurry" is like your "heartbeat". Your anxiety spikes whenever you think about your heart. But you can stop it or make it less of an obsession.

Omg so tired. 6 hours of driving sight seeing hiking. Oy. I laying in bed waiting for my son to get back. He went to ride his skateboard in the lot.
Hit the pool, sauna, and hot tub. So relaxing. Wish I could have more time in there tomorrow.
My son found a trail so we’re getting up at 5 and going hiking lol. God help me. Then we have to hurry up and get to the rafting place. It’s like an hour and a half away.

Valley, it's great that you are having a good time!

Yes Valley enjoy your trip!

True is it one huge OCD compulsion.. obsession... I check my pulse 100-200 times a day. It's like I get a hit from checking my pulse :/

But I'll try to stop..