Nothing motivates me. Help?

Okay, first of all: hi. I don't post here iften and my English is pretty bad so...

Anyway. The last few months I wake up (after barely having sleep), sit on the couch all day to watch some TV and whatever I watch is boring so 'why am I actually watching the televee?' And after wasting a day watching TV it's time to sleep again.

Well, the thing is: it seems like nothing motivates/interests me anymore and I've tried several times to do different stuff and after 10 minutes I give up. I'm both physically and mentally exhausted somehow. Even when I walk around in the house for 2 minutes, I eventually land on the couch again. Exhausted and whatnot. It's not that I'm bored but I can't seem to start doing other things. I don't use meds right now (only oxazepam and/or temazepam for sleep if I can't fall asleep... business as usual. But I don't want to take them daily...)

Years ago I wad quite active and creative. Always busy drawing lots of stuff. Now it's kind of a miracle when I create 3 drawings a month. And it's not that I don't want to do stuff. I like doing things but my motivation has gone below zero somehow. And now I'm at the point that it's starting to make me feel somewhat depressed. Also my 'schizo symptoms' are popping up again a bit. It's slowly sucking out the energy. Like I want to stay in bed and screw it all. Ignoring peoples calls, canceling psych appointments since they've never really helped me since the last 5 years... They've actually made things worse for me.

I even 'even forget' to eat most of the time because A: I kinda lost my appetite. B: Nothing tastes good. And in a week I went from 51 kg to 44,9... (It's been worse before though)...

I don't know if any of you have experienced the same and managed to get out of this. I also don't have real friends so I can't hang out with anyone. I guess my cat is my only buddy in life, lol...

Any tips to break this 'cycle'? It's slowly killing me and I want to get out of this before I totally neglect myself and maybe end it all...

Sorry for this long and boring post and probably no one is going to read/answer this BS.

Have you tried sarcosine? It’s supposed to help with motivation....

Not yet but I'll see if that's the right one for me. Thanks for the tip

When I was on SSRI's and SNRI's, I found I had no emotions which resulted in no motivation. However, I found that if I just gain the muster to start an activity then I can follow through with it. It's all about starting it.

If your having problems with anhedonia like I was, maybe something like Wellbutrin could help, because ti doesn't dull the emotions but help you feel more. It could also be that your on too powerful an anti psychotic too. Risperdone was way too powerful for me, and when I was put on Geodon I felt like my old self again, except without the delusions.

I still had some Wellbutrin from months ago. My psych is on vacation so I started taking them. And when he gets back I can ask for more. Wellbutrin was one of the things that actually worked a bit for me.

I'm a creative person. Even when my mind was melting during psychosis I still tried to do simpler art projects instead of master pieces. Sometimes stressing about making something perfect can cause analysis paralysis and inaction.

I can draw really well and make all kinds of intricate art when I'm healthy but when I'm not I do less complicated things, like melting plastic beads into pendants or endlessly bending fractals out of pipe cleaners. Simple crafts are just a way to tick the time by.

Try Crayola Model Magic, that stuff is fun, just try to play around with it.

It sounds like major depression. When I get that way, it usually means it's time to try a new med. Hope you can find something that helps.

I'm in this exact state now, I had an existential crisis, after I was strafed by things I did not want to saw, well ... I feel like I'm trapped and paralyzed because of anxiety, and depression is suffocating me, I do not care more with my past, I do not care about peoples, but there is a depression With no reason that it is working on me automatically, I can not explain, I feel like sleeping twice a day, something around 12-16 hours, I feel the need to rest, I can not recover my energy. This is distressing.

Sounds a bit like depression to me. That’s how I get when I’m not medicated correctly. I sleep, have no interest, lethargic, just miserable. Maybe you should talk to your doc about an antidepressant?