Write What You're Thinking

Just thinking about why I'm so different

Just thinking about prime numbers again and trying to derive comfort in that.

three is making me think I'm a bad girl

((((whispershadow))))

Machine Gun Kelly just became Tele Phone Kelly excluding the sweet tasting Jelly.

Can't stop thinking about the lottery. If I won, safety precautions because my state doesn't allow you to be anonymous and I have 3 ex husbands among stories I read of winners being murdered. So I went through the excitement phase to the would it really be a blessing phase.

Wondering why I'm so absent-minded

Wondering what's going to happen to me

"Kitty go play."

I always feel like I'm being followed. All day long. It's tiring but I can't help it. Everyone will just say it's nothing but it's not like I can control what I feel. When can I ever be in control of my life?

I like numbers that end in zero or five.

I also like 50 cent pieces and dollar coins. I have a whole bunch in a box by my bed.

I’m a ****ing asshole who can’t control my emotions.

A lot of people can't. In fact I have been also feeling the same after humiliating myself over my disorder's mistake. Couldn't focus on exercising. But I am still trying to forget what happened. I feel you, I am still calling myself an asshole after what happened. Especially over something so minor.

forensic science

It’s so embarrassing to be crying when you are caught in a situation with people. I’m just going to own up to saying I’m overly emotional and they’ll just have to deal with it.

I have been obsessing over the lottery as well! I think the next time I play I will win, but I haven't played the lottery for years. I have to continue to wait until the time is right. I feel like the time is coming. We shall see.

I keep thinking I want to change who I am. I keep thinking about Merlin, from the show Merlin, and I think I want to be like him. If you haven't seen it, its an Arthurian series about Camelot. I see a lot of myself in Merlin, and I keep thinking I want to make myself more like him. I keep thinking I want to become him.

Who should I talk to about the bugs?

It depends on the type of bugs you are talking about. If you are talking about insects, then an entomologist. If you are talking about the kind of bugs where people are spying on you, then your psychiatrist.

I'm thinking about whether or not I should go to the hospital. Kit.

Are you having

Thank you for the input. I don't think they sprayed my room yet. I'm hoping it will be soon. (Insects)

Yes. I am. I am feeling a teeny bit better today. I stayed at my parents last night and just slept and slept. My Mom knows how I'm feeling so she kept checking on me.

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. It's a good thing for your mom to check on you a lot.